fix you ;

moved!

2007-02-01T05:31:00.000-08:00

I MOVED.

ask me for the new url!

six feet from the edge

2007-01-31T03:56:00.000-08:00

LOVE ME FOR ME

hey yo.
hahaha well, today was okay la.
no different from the rest of the days.
but assembly! HILARIOUS
before that, we had emergency fire drill
and then although it was damn cold the whole morning, the sun was happily shining brightly on all of us
and then because mr teo was using the black box, we all cldnt hear what he was saying at all.
haha me and tanjuiwei was like happily tanning la.
lol

and then assembly. nothing much. talks all the way
but when you got bernice, kalvinder and tanjuiwei around you
everything becomes funny!
we were like dissing everyone and anyone!
okay, especially kalvinder, my very funny friend
HAHA

Please come now i think i'm falling
I'm holding on to all i think is safe
It seems i found the road to nowher$$e
And i'm trying to escape

I yelled back when i heard thunder
But i'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and i'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down

I'm looking down now that it's over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought i found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in his grace

I cried out heaven save me
But i'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and i'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and i'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down
Ain't so far down

Sad eyes follow me
But i still believe there's something left for me

So please come stay with me
Because i still believe there's something left for you and me
For you and me
For you and me

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and i'm thinking

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
Maybe six feet
Ain't so far down

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
Maybe six feet
Ain't so far down, I'm so far down

Please come now I think I'm falling and I'm holding on to all I think is safe

ey.
the guitar intro is damn nice (:
hello hello cute guys, play this or meeeee :D

when the stars go blue

2007-01-30T05:20:00.000-08:00

WHEN THE STARS GO BLUE

you know, i've listened to that song a million and one times
but today, as i listened to it during F&N, i was like
yea, what a damn good song that it.

hahaha yes
well, school was pretty fine.
had PD practice after school in church.
the girls are improving improving improving
we have about 30-40 seconds left in the song!
and then we're DONE.
HAHAHA well, the sucky thing is that we gta have trgs EVERYDAY after school for AT LEAST AN HOUR.
its not neccessarily a bad thing. well, really.
one hour's not THAT bad, and after all, it IS a NATIONAL DRILL COMPETITION
so yes, im praying praying praying! that we'd do REALLY REALLY wellll!
lol. although i'd be wearing my boots 6 times a week and all
it's probably worth it :D

yeaaaa. stayed in macs
to help Eileen with her orientation proposal
i see them so stressed! scares me really
so guys, please take it easy alright.

bus-ed home
music was G-R-E-A-T
really vintage soothing songs
like my sacrifice by creed
wherever you will go by the calling
and all that.

and i seriously think im growing oldddd.
getting tired so easily! and cold too!
HAHA
well, this year, im gna
#1. concentrate on Os
#2. get a GOLD for drill competiton!
#3. RETIRE FROM SECONDARY SCHOOL HAPPIILLLYYYY :D

they say this life is overrated.

i didnt steal your boyfriend

2007-01-29T00:32:00.000-08:00

I DIDN'T STEAL YOUR BOYFRIEND

urgh. i feel horrible.
horrible. horrid. yea.

i've spent the better half of this morning playing the piano, trying to comfort myself
HAHA. oh how pathetic!
but yes, since my house has such great view, i shall sit on the balcony
attempt to do sme hmwk, or at least think of the PD steps
and watch the hot dragon boaters, well, dragon boat.
heh.

OH YES
jiang got his first pay alreadyyy
so im totally waiting for the 200grams of butterscotch and pecan
of course he didn't forget, right? :D

i really really wish i could fast forward time, and then just pause it there for a really long time
to the period when Os are so over, but i still get to meet up with my friends and basically bum and chill.
tsk. not even 16 yet, and im complaining. haha

and as varian NEVER fails to remind me, Valentines day is coming!
meaning i gta get people to plan.
then there's investiture
and PD.
and hmwk.
and and and.

and pao, ive decided!
we shall go with boyfriend.
HAH.
okay?

Geraldine
Eraldine
Raldine
Aldine
Ldine
Dine
Ine
Ne
E.

who doesn't like my nameee?
let's kick-ass, baby (:

i'll do anything

2007-01-28T06:20:00.000-08:00

I'D DO ANYTHING

Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
'Cuz so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Some how I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
'Cuz I know I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of dropping out of school
And leave this place
To never come back

So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting

This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again

I'd do anythingJust to hold you in my arms
Try to make you laugh
Some how I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz i know I won't forget you

I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you

Nanana (2 x)
And I'd do anything for you
Nanana (2 x)

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Some how I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
To fall asleep with you, with you yea
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
To try to make you laugh
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
Cuz I know I won't forget you

oh, how primary school.
i like :D

just to bum with you and be total nonsense [:

save me from this craze

2007-01-28T00:31:00.000-08:00

SAVE ME FROM THIS CRAZE

corrinne may.
hahaha

anyway, i was just missing my lower secondary days, you know?
how we could just slack and joke in class
with nothing much to worry about apart from studies and very minor roles in our CCA and in the board.

up to now, i marvel at how quickly the past 3 years have passed.
i mean, seriously. im gna get all sentimental now, but being 16 and sec 4,
it feels that i havent grown, and at the same time, i've grown
who doesnt wna stay young and enjoy the priviledges of being carefree and all?
but damn, reality strikes back.
haha

i remember the first time i went for the GB thang - the tea party?
yea, my first friend there ( apart from grace and evan )
was DING CHEW. HAHA
we ~~did~~ LEARNT drills together! remember?
and then there was this lunch? with bernice peh swee yee
at burger king(sadly, its not there anymore)
haha yes, we still remember the conversations la.
and then of course there's NDP 04
me shima ivy and jas.
it's those times that really really slaps you in the face and leaves you bleeding

sec 2 was THE year man!
the clips, the dings
no doubt, very very tiring and draining year, but it was the best (:
well, the 6 of us - bernice, me, cheryl, varian, kuansheng, and adam
we went for this lit publishing thing? yea and we nonsensed like nobodies business, and there you have it -the clips + adam and niang.
and basketball sessions! so many of it! (:
DING? HAHA ask DING. TYPE SAL.

sec 3 was great too.
fun. i mean, new environment and new people, new friends
oh, and CHINA TRIP!
really, it just doesnt get any better [:

okay, the reason why im blogging all this nonsense out here is cause time is passing wayyyy too fast.
and it still is.
HAHA i know i know, sue me.
but yea, i love this life, you know?
nothing you can comprehend, nothing you can describe [:

this brings tears to my eyes, my sacrifice (:

will you stay?

2007-01-27T06:17:00.000-08:00

WALAO.
bloody stalkers.
crreeeeeeppppyyyy.
help? someone?

argh.

if i was invisible

2007-01-26T23:09:00.000-08:00

IF I WAS INVISIBLE

HOHO.
this feels GREAT.
i mean, yea the weather's really cold. and im bumming in front of the computer.
with a packet of wangwang! next to me
and wearing this HUGE OVERSIZED jumper.
hahaha
This
Is
Life
lol and plus the computer's playing old old old nice nice songs which i havent been listening to

Michelle Branch, Clay Aiken, O-Town, A1, S Club 7, some Ashlee simpson, Lifehouse, even Billie Piper! Blue, Damien Rice, Creed, Darius Danesh, Darren Hayes,

yep. rocks =]

of all the things i believed in
i just wanna get it over with
tears form behind my eyes
but i do not cry
counting the days that passed me by
i've been searching deep down in my soul
words that im hearing are starting to get old
feels like im starting all over again
the last three years just pretend
and i said, goodbye to you
goodbye to everything i thought i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to
i still get lost in your eyes
and it seems like i can't live a day without you
closing my eyes, you chase my thoughts away
to a place where i am blinded by the light
but its not right
goodbye to you
goodbye to everything i thought i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to

it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
i want what's yours and i want what's mine
i want you
but i'm not giving in this time
goodbye to you
goodbye to everything i thought i knew
You were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to
and when the stars fall
i will lie awake
you're my shooting star [:

i will do it for myself, and you

are you happy now?

2007-01-26T08:47:00.000-08:00

ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?

today was loonngg and panicky!
school was okay. after recess went NYP
im sorry to say, but the open house WAS boring!

left and bus-ed back to school
hung around for some time, and played badminton
yea campfire was okay
FUN. made me lose my voice and all
but yes, im TOO tired to elaborate and all
just wanna thank all the TEACHERS, SENIORS, and LEADERS! :D
yeepppp. prata prata.
but cldnt even fnish one piece of kosong because my throat hurts like shit.

im now COLD
TIRED
and IN PAIN

all i wna do is talk to you
but i don't.

so i scream

2007-01-25T04:35:00.000-08:00

SO I SCREAM, SCREAM CAUSE IT HURTS

like okay, im once again watching american idol
this is super amusing.
this girl is depressed. the sarah person? yep
she's like, I CANT SING, PARIS HILTON CANT SING, BUT I STILL CAN BE THE NEXT AMERICAN IDOL
HAHAHA like, HELLO?

super duper weird.

yea. anyway im really really tired
and not motivated. at all
but yes, today was okay.
apart from the really nice weather which totally put my whole class to sleep. HAHA
but yes, after school, drills
it was normal. and then played badminton! haha
pao-ed with melissa and eunice. and now
im home.

sometimes i wonder why im doing what im doing now
HAHA. damn philosophyyyyyyy.

prison break TWO-HOURS special tonight!
I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW PEOPLE CAN THINK ITS BORING!
cause its not.
and i suddenly wna watch charmed. lol

your every word cuts me inside, and leaves me hurt

in the end, it doesn't even matter

2007-01-24T06:59:00.000-08:00

IN THE END, IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER

im feeling so so so cold nowwww
brrr. hahaha
anyway, my morning started so like, bad
haha but after geog lesson, it started to become better
so yes, i shall think positive and totally be happy now
no point in being all moody, aint it? HAHA

and well, after school and thinking of the campfire and all that,
we detoured to macs. to study!
i mean, REALLY study! maths totally rock la.
hahaha and im so satisfied now.
now that ive finished all my hmwk, except lit. heh

gna be a really long day tmr.
and i really cannot stand this headache ive been getting
its a on-off thing
major turn-off. argh

is it broken? can we work out?
Let's light up the town, scream out loud
is it broken? can we work it out?
i can see it in your eyes
You're ready to break
don't walk away.
Time, its all i ask for - time
i just need one more day
In the moonlight, your face it glows (:

pretty damn good song. especially the accoustics!

drops of jupiter

2007-01-23T05:37:00.000-08:00

TELL ME, DID YOU FALL FOR A SHOOTING STAR?

you know, i really have ALOT of things to blog about actually.
on sunday, when i went out with jmo and the rest and all that.
yea. really alot
but im too lazy

really, i'll love you forever if you'll just deliver some ben&jerrys and the first season of prison break to my house now.
don't worry, i'll make coffee for you
and i'll share the ice-cream, of course

sadly, there's no you now.
hahaha

one without a permanant scar =]

a falling star, least i fall alone

2007-01-22T06:15:00.000-08:00

I CAN'T EXPLAIN WHAT YOU CAN'T EXPLAIN

all i feel like doing now is to be able to play really nice pieces of the piano
sadly, i cant

and the other thing i feel like doing now is like just stuff myself with chips and MUG and chocolate and lie on the sofa and watch prison break!

to sum up: i really dont wna think of which course i wna go to, or how well i'd do for my Os, or worry about campfire, or even about tmr's PD practice.

yea
but too bad. im leading a sad sad life.
HAHAHAHA
oh what self-pity!

anyway, today was pretty okay.
just that the stall aunty wasnt there to sell me MILO when i needed one the most!
Oh, but seeeing NAT totally cheered me up! (:

plus, we were in a mini-campfire mood.
yea i stress MINI

ohwell, i've done my homework (:
plus i gta write postcard!

t'ciao [:

don't cry for us

2007-01-20T06:00:00.000-08:00

DON'T CRY FOR US

great song.
by justincase
and michelle branch co-wrote that */points song!

yea
so anyway, tea party was really good!
FOOD was SUPERB
like, seriously la. lol
and i hope the sec1s and the girls really did enjoy themselves
lol

they collected their drill tests results.
to those you failed: dont be so disappointed alright. you guys can always go for drill test again!

yea and then i met the usual
went to TP.
quite boring la. i was hoping to see the radio crew or smethg you know?
HAHAHA then i came home

i know i know.
i lead a dead boring life.

It's hard to know just what to do in times like these
It's hard to know just what to say
And I'm just sitting here just asking myself why
It's good to know you feel the same

And I believe
I wanna be your everything
And anything you need.

Don't cry for us tonight
Don't cry we'll be all right
If I could I'd be by your side
Don't cry for us

You know that I'd give anything to watch you sleep
I can picture you just lying there
We don't need to say the words'
cause they don't mean a thing
You know you're not alone when someone cares.

And I believe
You are still my anything
And everything I need

Don't cry for us tonight
Don't cry we'll be all right
If I could I'd be by your side
Don't cry for us

Built of steel, we may seem weak
and rusted
But in times like these we've always won
and trusted
in ourselves

Don't cry for us tonight
Don't cry we'll be all right
If I could I'd be by your side
Don't cry for us

Don't cry for us tonight
Don't cry we'll be all right
If I could I'd be by your side
Don't cry for us

It's hard to know just what to do in times like these
It's hard to know just what to say

what the hell

2007-01-19T08:07:00.000-08:00

THIS IS SO IRRITATING!

Blogger is such a loser. just as i was about to type in my LAST and FINAL line, blogger happily hangs on me. well done ar.
i've got blisters. from the damn heels and also, from the boots (when i did drills yesterday)
im super tone deaf. i was like trying to pitch and try to sing. but after one line i realised how horrible it was.
Headache's coming back. dont even ask why.
Im demoralised! lower than ever ):
plus, i have no idea where the stupid ipod went! it has like MIA-ed for ten thousand years already, never to come back
AND i still cant believe i dont have any more HBO pack!

And all i can think of now is mole concept.
HO. geraldine, what a genius.

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
That when the lights are off something's killing me

I know it seems like people care
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done and everybody runs

Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl

Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's so hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go, nowhere but home

Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall

It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
That sometimes loneliness is just a part of me
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
And not ashamed to see me crawl

Who's gonna catch me when I fall

and i'll be fine. im gonna get on, move on, i'm livin' (:

stars and boulevards

2007-01-18T06:26:00.000-08:00

AND THEY SAY THAT A HERO WILL SAVE US, IM NOT GONNA STAND HERE AND WAIT

HAHAHAHA
WHAT IS WRONG WITH AMERICANS?
AND SINGAPORES?
damn, im so gonna get screwed.
but really, american idol is super entertaining! HAHAHA
its like totally 100% hilarious.

and this is great.
i finished sending the orientation tea party proposal. and ive finished my TA and all.
just. nice (:
FOR PRISON BREAK of course!
i absolutely LOVE it when he kinda like squints his eyes. and half-smile or something
so intense! so hot :D
wentworth miller! I LOVE YOU <3

HAHAHA
so well, today was BORING
and LONG. even if there were 3 free periods.
drills after school and now im like DEAD.
its like, im so busy, i hate it.

i'll be fine (:

yea i wanted to believe you

2007-01-17T05:10:00.000-08:00

YEA I WANNA BELIEVE YOU, WHEN YOU SAID THAT IT'D BE OKAY
YEA I TIRED TO BELIEVE YOU.
BUT I DON'T.

so avril lavigne la /points
lol

american idol is on now. funny la.
the world is coming to a dead end or something.
everyone's like, in self-denial.
as in, you know you cant sing, so why go join a singing competition? yea. THAT kind of dead-end
worse still, you become the next william hunk because you are so terrible you get featured on tv.
how how how embarrassing.
lol

today was super duper long.
and recess only me and cheryl went down. HAHA
first time in THREE YEARS, SEVENTEEN DAYS!
its damn sad la, really. hahaha
there was assembly. where mr jali talked about his IT stuff.
watched the video where syamim was the narrator again. prettty funny yea.
reminds me of the graduants! lol

after school had long meeting with mdm amrit. yes. and then after that was trying to relax and destress in school ( needless to say, it was a total failure )
and secondary ones are getting more and more freaky ( i shall not continue to comment )
yes. and like, we were so hungry we ordered macs. HAHA
when i graduate. i'll DEFINITELY remember those times we ordered macs. not just a few orders but like, TWENTY-SOMETHING orders at most! LOL :D

saw APPLE CHOY CHINN YII who looked GREAT.
and also, mengfengggggggggg! HAHA (:

so anyway, we slacked for a little while longer. and then we started doing hmwk.
yep and now there's only maths and mt left.
BORING LA.
PLUS there's GB tmr.

headache headache headache.
i shall not waste anymore time and go study!

then i see you standing there, wanting more from me.

im not alone

2007-01-16T05:29:00.000-08:00

CAUSE YOU'RE EVERYWHERE TO ME, SO TELL ME, DO YOU SEE ME?

what a really old song.
where has michelle branch gone to? =/
she used to be the coolest (:

anyway today was great.
tuesdays. rock!
my bag was feeling pretty light, and i was feeling pretty happyyy
HAHAHA dont ask me why though.
so like, pehsweeyee and i did the healthy lifestyle presentation
i was trying my best not to laugh. serious!
HA.

class was okay. i really like studying now.
and DONT LAUGH, i like maths EVEN MORE now!
hoho im not joking!
yea and today was so good it didnt rain. AND doing ying yong wen didnt knock me down!
HAHAHAHA

after school went with THE DINGS for anniversary lunch (:
lol gobbled yupian down in like record time ( TEN MINUTES AT MOST!)
and then practically ran to church cause we were afraid we'd be late for first aid!
the very first time we all finished yupian so so so fast! HAHA
developed minor stomachaches, all of us did. lol

first aid was being taught by uncle raymond
he is H-I-L-A-R-I-O-U-S i tell you, with a capital H.
learnt cool stuff, heard about super sick stuff.
but yea. it was funny (:

after that while dinesh, cjj, pao and rufus jammed in 303
the rest of us did homework! WE DID OKAY.
i finished ss and english and that was pretty much it la.
jammed. feels GREAT!
dont know how long never jam with the GB/BB people already!
much less, YF people. hmmm
after jamming for dont know how long, me and pao walked with kee teck and kay/kee loke to mac
kee loke is FUNNY la. we were like arguing the WHOLE way to macs!
BUT he still lost to meeeeee (:
after all, i am geraldine! HA

dinner-ed with the usual.
oh we played this picture picture thing la.
i rock can!
i guessed almost everything!
ME. ME. ME
HA. yes people. beware. im egoistic now.

LOONNNGGG day tmr.
all i feel like doing now is stand outside video ezzy? ( whassit called?) and DROOL at wentworth miller!
i wanted to stare into his eyes and melt today but pao la. dragged me away. and i meant it literally.
come come, treat me some ben&jerrys! havent had it for damn long!

bus-ed home ALONE. as usual
im now being labelled as the BEDOK KIA.
RUDE LA. spare me can. dont break my heart like that! HAHA
but yea whatever. bus rides home are pretty amusing except that today i was half-asleep!

yea. hmm. right.
out!

all i ever wanted was to eat popcorn with you (:

everything you want

2007-01-15T05:34:00.000-08:00

HE SAID ALL THE RIGHT THINGS, AT EXACTLY THE RIGHT TIME, BUT HE MEANS NOTHING TO YOU, AND YOU DON'T KNOW WHY

its so so so so so so so cold!
im freezziinnngggg!

and the box of ferrero rocher in front of me is soooo tempting!
all i want now is a cup of hot chocolate (:
yummy.

ha. how random.

the first cut is the deepest
but im gna try to love again [:

stick wit you

2007-01-15T04:49:00.000-08:00

STICK WIT YOU

hey hey hey!

its been really really busy, really really hectic la
tests everyday
never-ending homework
so many things to plan
so many things to do

but yes, it'll all be over. soon enough
it's just a matter of time, aint it?
phew.

i shall keep the ranting short.
but yes, its THAT bad

had school today ( okay, obviously )
and then after that had some motivational talk.
its quite useless, really
no one was paying attention which i feel is really kind of rude, but hey, dont blame me for trying

well well well

HAPPY DINGS ANNIVERSARY! :D :D :D

damn, i really love you three to bittsss!
life is so dull without you, but sorry! today cldnt hang out!
simply toooo busy!

yea. busy.
i have plenty homework! shall go do it.

HAHA and i thought i wldnt meet anyone i know in TM la.
guess who i saw?
kenneth chan! OF ALL PEOPLE =/

hey girl, i wanna drift away with you (:

stained glass masquerade

2007-01-14T05:23:00.000-08:00

so heavy.
but now, i know (:
It's not just temporary, it's everlasting

no more, no less

2007-01-14T04:04:00.000-08:00

NO MORE, NO LESS

i went for youth sve today!
sat with sheng and the rest at the back cause charis and prayer partner came late, and germs was ushering
lol. he is so super noisy. and sitting at the back sucked.
all the tall people stand in front of me, i cant see anything LA!
but yea, worship WAS good. and word was great too (:

hahaha anyway, masterlife 3&4's coming up!
wanted to sign up for the one that's coming up soon, but then prayer partner and charis didnt want to! so we stood at the foyer and talked, hmm-ed, ahh-ed and decided to sign up for the june one. like masterlife 1&2
so yes, we're all satisfied.

after church, lunched with dorothy and jonathan
hilarious la. we were basically talking nonsense.
came home and me and dorothy were like browsing through friendster, seeing who is pretty, and who is not.
how typical right. lol
they left, and now, aunty helen and stephanie! is over here.
havent seen them for eons. and yep, catching up IS good.

well, there's bio test tmr, and i havent studied YET.
not one page.
sian =/
PLUS, my blue-black still hurts
which reminds me, i didnt meet reban in church today! HOHO.
im ranting la.

Your mercies found me
Upon that broken road
And lifted me beyond all failing

Into your glory
My sin and shame
And now forever yours i'll stand

In love never to end
To call you more than Lord, Glorious Friend

So i throw my life upon all that you are
Cause i know you gave it all for me
When all else fades, my soul will dance
With you
Where the love lasts forever [:

and i'll sing, i'll sing i love you so
and i'll sing, because nothing could ever take away your love

its complicated but understand

2007-01-13T05:19:00.000-08:00

IT'S COMPLICATED BUT UNDERSTAND ME

im satisfied.
but disappointed
HAHA how contradictory.

well, okay. let's start from this morning.
woke up and wore my full-u after like dont know how long
and then went to school for CCA open house/orientation booth thing la
reached there to meet the rest of the dings.
and the GB girls were already forming up for their drill stage one test.
yes. scary. i know how it feels =/

well, anyway, they were having the test and the rest of us were setting up the booths.
all in all, i think we did really well!
GUESS HOW MANY NAMES WE GOT?
EIGHTY-EIGHT.
as in. 80 + 8!
haha rocks la. yet, i know that not all of the 88 put GB as first choice. but still, its a great achievement!
lol. and me? well, i bladed. i blade every year la. (:
this year with joelynne. and anyway, the blades were super super huge.
and like, the floor was so slippery! ( it made me TALLER, though! )
anyway, i was standing around prefects room there with joelynne. and guess what!
REBAN RAI happily comes and kick my right leg.
and obviously, i slipped and fell!
SPASTIC. i was laughing so hard, i couldnt get up.
and now my knee got blue-black! HAHA
nonsense innit!
BANNY. ( my gosh ) I BETTER SEE YOU TMR AR.

and after most of the sec 1s cleared, i did a lil drills.
while the rest were getting their drill test comments ( i remember THAT feeling too! )
we cleared up the room and all.
i slacked around, eating cream puffs and mini-pizzas while talking nonsense to the usual.
waited for huiqun for like, ten years.
and of course, waited for the rain to stop too la.
then we, plus the np kias lunched - prata!(duh)
hahaha we did what we did best ; talk nonsense, tease huiqun, ask where terry is, and of course, ate (:
met parents at ntuc, and came home

SLEPT like nobodies business. damn shiok la.
haha woke up around 7? yea
and i did the BEST THING ever!
i ran.
4.5km bedok reservoir.
but the timing SUCKED. im serious. it sucked.
around 30 minutes la.
im so demoralised. hahaha ):
but yea, the pro pushed me on.
and not to mention, the weather was cool. and there werent many people ( exception of one hot guy, and many banglas! )

well, im now smelly. sticky and not so sweaty anymore (:
but still, i feel refreshed!

HOHOHO.
gooodbyeeee my lovverrrrrsssssssss <3

take that

2007-01-12T06:02:00.000-08:00

TAKE. THAT.

yep yep yep. im super duper tired
and i still have to polish boots and get my full u ready!
WHAT IS THIS, MAN! haha
well, tmr, i gta wear my full u to school for the CCA orientation thing la.
and then after like, one hour, i change to mufti. and blade with F-LANG PARTNER!
seriously la. do i have tooo? ):

HOHO. school's getting better.
headache's not. basically i think its the lack of sleep la.
i everyday sleep at, a not quite early time. and wake up super early. lol
PLUS, the weather's so good for sleeping!
in class, i keep wanting to fall asleep.
but i dont, of course

so like, after school today, stayed back for orientation prog.
because they stayed in their classes and there was proper distribution of roles and all, it was much MUCH better (:
i could walk around and cheer and do retarded stuff with varian! [:
we were like, relieving old times. and old cheers/songs
like the funky chicken one, ( reminds me of ivy !) and also, here in yuying.
lol so fun la!
and 1A this year, really is good. reminds me of my own 1A back in 2004

after debrief and such, i rushed down to help out the exco to do finish the orientation stuff.
initially helped them with the clay thing, but decided to do up some 'posters'
lol i wont say they're the best. but hey, its the thought that counts RIGHT?

anyway, they all waited for me for ten years. and finally, we left
went to macs for dinner
talked nonsense. laughed at spore bastard's msg to me! HAHA
i will i will give la. just ask me! JUST ADMIT. HOHO

well, now im home
boots! im off to shine you !

Just have a little patience

I'm still hurting from a love I lost,
I'm feeling your frustration.
Any minute all the pain will stop.

Just hold me close inside your arms tonight,
don't be too hard on my emotions

Cause I need time.
My heart is numb, has no feeling.
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience.

I really wanna start over again,
I know you wanna be my salvation.
The one that I can always depend.

I'll try to be strong.
Believe me,
I'm trying to move on,
It's complicated but understand me.

Cause I need time,
My heart is numb, has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience,

Yeah, have a little patience, Yeah

Cause these ~~scars run so deep~~
It's been hard,
But I have to believe in me.

Have a little patience,
Have a little patience,

Woah, Cause I,
I just need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
just try, and have a little patience,

Have a little patience,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing
just try and have a little Patience

there's a place off ocean avenue, where i used to sit and talk with you (:

2007-01-11T05:18:00.000-08:00

oh please. damn. spare me la.
its only january! not even the seventh month.
the nightmares again. and reflections.
ever since gastrics started, its 3AM all over again.
someone, help?

when im missing you

2007-01-11T04:56:00.000-08:00

HOW CAN I SING WHEN MY WORDS HAVE RUN DRY?

great song you know. its been like dont know how long since i heard it
and then that day, karina joins me to watch ( we didnt really la okay ) the guys play soccer
and so i picked up her IPOD. and there it was! the song i meant

hahaha anyway. today was actually fine! good, even
the first person i looked for in school today was jiang (:
LOL. so yea. attire check as per normal
and i had three tests today. english, bio, and lit.
im gna do badly in all three. so yea.
i admit, i didnt study much. lol

well, other than small entertainment from the usual, life's been pretty much the usual.
when i say usual, i mean boring. mundane
NO KICK!
lol and there was drills trg today! seriously? the girls are improving!
im super proud of them (:
who knows? we might even get a gold for drill comp [:

yea. and like, all i feel like doing these days is put on sme old running shoes. and go run
simple. life should be simple. just like running. hahaha i feel so preachy and nonsensical but seriously! i miss running.
and my piano ):
but yes, once the weather gets much MUCH better i'll definitely go run.
the gym is smelly la. and filled with either old women. or short, overly-fit neighbours of mine.
Well, the tennis court though. is definitely the opposite! sadly, i dont have much time to sit by the pool and watch tennis games anymore! hahaha

well, hmm.
oh

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIEN!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACKSON!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEREMY!

and HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY ALVIN LOWWWWW!

HAHAHA :D
and lynn is so cute la.

band - vocalist? (:

i'd rather remember the ends of time

2007-01-10T04:13:00.000-08:00

I'D RATHER REMEMBER THE ENDS OF TIME

hey yo.
feeling so so so muggish now.

all day long, teachers tell us sec 4s and 5s that O levels are coming up soon. and that we dont have much time to waste yada yada yada.
and though im not revising much, i know that yes, im doing my homework and studying for tests
and tests! oh boy! EVERYDAY.
if not english surprise test, then bio test, if not bio, then chinese, if not chinese then lit!
yea. but i feel that this system IS good. because if i keep having tests, i gta keep studying. which also means i'll be able to remember things longer and constantly. hahaha

but anyway, im really panicking for chinese oral. and maths.
that's all. it's all im REALLY worried about. for now, anyway.
lol and mdm de told me that i gta study hard for chinese and get A1.
hello? A1. HAHA
I CAN MAKE IT!
IM THE BEST!
i know. sounds wrong. but that's what the teachers are making us do! trying to get us motivated.
well, only two words. GOOD TRY.
hahahaha

oh. was watching the arena on tv mobile. was sososo amused! the episode when loyang sec vs RI. yea. its really cool. the 2nd speaker was so jidong ( not to mention, slanted ) and the rebuttal/opposition was this tiny guy from RI. hahaha he rocks la! she was saying smethng about her mummy saying etc etc. and then he was like, WELL, IS YOUR MUMMY CREDIBLE?
i so totally laughed to myself on the bus! haha

meetings and events all day, no week long. yep.
pretty soon im gna step down!
23rd april! here i come (:

sweet is the sight of you

HIGH

2007-01-09T05:54:00.000-08:00

PROMISE ME TOMORROW STARTS WITH YOU

hello.
i can't believe this is actually happening to me. I've been having gastrics for two days straight. WHAT IS THIS! its not fair LA. the last time i kena was like what, p3? when i didn't eat properly and regularly for like almost a week. I stress the ALMOST.

well, the desktop has finally arrived at baywater, along with the broadband. my life is so complete! HAHA and the guy who delivered it last night was like. h-o-t. believe me la. oh, and his voice. walao. girls, you'll love it (:
but sadly, he looks like what, twenty-plus HAHA :D

school. sucks. im being 100percent honest here! i dont know what i've been doing these days. call it memory lapse. but i find myself agree-ing to take on so many things that even i'm confused!
hahaha the perfect time for a boyfriend. or a PDA phone. lol yea. we all agreed. PDA phone wins. hands down. no competition!

well, i shall just self-denial. and tell myself that yes, it'll only be for awhile. and that im so gna step down very soon. i know its wrong. but please, dont correct me (:

i hate/love bus rides. theres ABSOLUTELY NOTHING you can do! except people watch of course. and that's the part i like. its amusing la. because the ride is so long, i pay more attention to, my SURROUNDINGS. haha

and people, thanks for being worried and all.
everyone's been telling me i shldnt get all stressed up and yadayadayada
well, im coping. struggling.
but nonetheless, still coping

OH. i got my O LEVEL f&n coursework question already! its damn early. but it will serve as my motivation HAHA ( bullshit! ) i shall photocopy it and then paste like hundred copies around my room so that im constantly pressure to study! HAHA. yea. im serious. believe me!

i seriously need some painkillers! ):

what a facade. i could win a grammy

irrelacable

2007-01-05T05:36:00.000-08:00

EVERYTHING YOU OWN IN THE BOX TO THE LEFT

hey yo whats up people.

im currently stuck on FERGELICIOUS. thanks to kalvinder
have so much to say, but all im panicking about is basically, just the sec ones orientation, and GB.
proposals and all are KILLING me
im like, so damn busy la can. orientation and of course, i gta panic for Os.
it's like what, Oct 22nd and of course, chinese is in june, as the teachers NEVER fail to say whenever they see us
they just mock at us and are glad to see us distressed! SADISTIC.

anyway, as usual, school was hectic.
i stress the word HECTIC.
i kept having frequent panic attacks, and seriously? the only time i relaxed was when i was in class, STUDYING
have GREAT teachers this year, thank God.
no quiet teachers who talk to the wall, and weird teachers who have no clue what they're talking about, to name some

yep. went to SP open house today.
DOM AND KENNETH CHAN TOTALLY EMBARRASSED ME.
i just wanted to like, melt into the floor or smethg! MY GOSH.
dom's whole class was like GERALDINE GERALDINE!
they even pulled bernice in, but im not too worried about that HAHA

after SP, took train home with, of all people, theng hui! HAHA and then this eurasian ( i think ) guy comes and stands in between us.
He's super tall, and also, he was reading the paper.
At least i thought so la, but i noticed he kept stealing glances at me which was super super freaky.
i totally freaked out and wanted to bail! but was too interested eavesdropping on these two australian girls's conversation.
amusement level : 10!

well, i definitely wna join MASS COMM (:
the coolese course in town, yea? ( that's what mr hot - according to kal, said )
but yea. for SP. b3/b4 for english is enough. which is kinda. well, i dont know how to say it
but ngee ann requires an A1/A2

AND WHAT'S WRONG WITH JOURNALISM ANYWAY?

You must not know about me You must not know about me I could have another you in a minute matter fact he'll be here in a minute - baby
You must not know about me You must not know about me I can have another you by tomorrow So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable
So go ahead and get gone And call up on that chick and see if she is home Oops, I bet ya thought that I didn't know What did you think I was putting you out for? Cause you was untrue Rolling her around in the car that I bought you Baby you dropped them keys hurry up before your taxi leaves Standing in the front yard telling me How I am such a fool - Talking about How I'll never ever find a man like you You got me twisted
You must not know about me You must not know about me I could have another you in a minute matter fact he'll be here in a minute - baby
You must not know about me You must not know about me I will have another you by tomorrow So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable
So since ~~I'm not your everything~~ How about I'll be nothing Nothing at all to you Baby I wont shed a tear for you I won't lose a wink of sleep Cause the truth of the matter is Replacing you is so easy
To the left To the left To the left To the left (mmm)
To the left To the left Everything you own in the box to the left
To the left To the left

Don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

You must not know about me You must not know about me I could have another you in a minute matter fact he'll be be here in a minute - baby
You must not know about me You must not know about me I can have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable
You must not know about me You must not know about me I could have another you in a minute matter fact he'll be be here in a minute - baby
You must not know about me You must not know about me I can have another you by tomorrow Don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable
You got me twisted How I'll never ever find a man like you How I'm such a fool - Talking about Standing in the front yard telling me So remove your bags let me call you a cab And It's my mine name that is on that Jag But could you walk and talk at the same time And keep talking that mess, that's fine If I bought it please don't touch In the closet that's my stuff - Yes
Everything you own in the box to the left To the left To the left To the left (mmm)To the left
To the left To the left

what you see's not what you get (:

im not here for your entertainment

2007-01-03T05:09:00.000-08:00

What hurts the most Was being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was tryin’ to do It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go But I’m doin’ It It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone Still Harder Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret But I know if I could do it over I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart That I left unspoken

fix you

2007-01-03T04:18:00.000-08:00

I AM THE LIE, LIVING FOR YOU

what's up, doods?

well, i've got loads of stuff to say, but its pretty much normal ranting

Today, 3rd January 2007. The First Day Of School
First day of sec four
First day of my graduating Year
First Day as the oldest student in the school ( apart from Sec 5s and retain-ees)
The first thought i had in the morning was well, to pray. Pray that everything will run smoothly and not screw up.
But of course, that's probably inevitable, and let's just say things weren't all that smooth la

Had a chance to catch up with classmates, thought not much. But yes, everything felt kinda, comforting?
I totally didnt wna leave my friends la. dont. present tense.
I mean, apart from the panic-attacks i was having in the morning because of the prefects-sec 1s, i was dreading the time when i'll be officially a GRADUANT.
pretty scary huh? haha but pretty cool too, i guess?

Bus ride home was SUPER long. but i just have to get used to it la.
was seeing different people on my way to school, and on my way home
different uniforms, different sights and different people. yea
i miss serangoon (:
HAHA gosh, im being all so sentimental and all.

and first day totally sucked. Thee first thing i did when i saw pts was to complain
grumble grumble grumble. and then some more. had long boring talks but was very amused by woamshing, jinyue and of course, cheryl (:
OH, plus mornings started off with VIVA. my parents FINALLY decided to start investing on it again so that's definitely good. GREAT even

after school, slacked with the usual. watched them play soccer as usual. and then im off with ter. on 22, i was thinking alot. and also, wanting to sleep.
Met up with rosamund and shayn and then we mugged. A little. but nevertheless, on a 3rd of jan, mugging is rare so yes, praise us! HAHA
walked over in the rain and am now at cousin's house.

I cannot stand the dreary weather.
I cannot stand lonely long bus rides.
I cannot stand being so busy even though its only THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.
And i cannot stand my life.
period.

So little time, too much to do ):

Resolutions

2007-01-01T03:57:00.000-08:00

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS

1. To always ALWAYS turn to God no matter what
2. To do my QT every night and go to church every sunday!
3. To MUG like nobodies business, for Os!
4. To save money and be a nerd (:
5. To learn how to prioritise my time - God, Family, Studies, Friends, Prefect, GB
6. To not drink, nor party until after Os, at least
7. To go to Aus/Japan after Os!
8. To LOSE WEIGHT
9. To start running again (:
10. To be able to fulfil my nine other new year resos

DEDICATIONS =]

THE DINGS

PTS - thanks for all the crazy moment this year! You've been GREAT and i love you for who you are! Long RARE talks mean ALOT to me

DING - TYPE SAL. thanks for being so kuku and making us all laugh with your funny actions and words! ilu

WOOF - YOU. ROCK. i love you for all you've done.

THE CLIPS

CHERYL - Hey sweet! You rock my socks (: It's been three looonnnggg years and i admit i havent seen much of you this year. Os next year so we're gna have to mug hard (: ILU

JIANG - You are noisy and that rocks!

VARIAN - STOP BULLYING ME! but whatever, that just makes you special. AND STUDY
HARD OKAY!

NIANG - hahaha zhuhui?TRY HARDER

ADAM - i still hink you're cool (:

KS - where are you! you've MIA-ed for ten years la. come back okay, macdonald boy!

2A '05 peeps

Thanks for all the hello-s and goodbye-s. You guys never fail to remind me of those special two years (:

YF

GERMS - Thanks for everything! for always messaging me on sunday mornings and nagging me to attend church (:

MUTHU - MORTAL! you rock la. of course, im your angel (:

BONG - Thanks for the shaking hands but not shaking, scratching head and then hitting the other's heads! you rock la. teach me drums okay!

POOK - nananannana. HAHA see you in 07!

SHENG - Thanks for embarrassing me during watchnight but yea, you've been great. thanks for all the updates when we both didnt go church!

HARRER, ANNA, DEB, DOROTHY, PRAYER PARTNER, DANIELLA etc - HEY! thanks for saying hi whenever im in church! (:

3C '06

HOHOHO you guys rock la! ahma, nata-piah, chrys, tkb, alvin, woamshing - you guys really made class enjoyable.
To the rest, you guys rock!

SEXY PEOPLE

TER - Thanks for hanging out, and talking nonsense online and printing stuff and bearing with my nonsense!

LEONG - thanks for being GAY and always trying to pick a fight with me! Thanks for our advice and always being able to tolerate my rants and nonsense. It's been great working with you, mr president

KARINA - HEY YO! you rock la. thanks for bitching with me and hating paris hilton. For the guy-watching and the spastic-ness we always go through. for hanging out with me while waiting for the guys to play soccer and giving them a limited time but joining them in the end. HAHA

PAO - stop being gay.thanks for all the nice nice songs too!

GB

OFFICERS - thanks ma'ams for the mentoring sessions and all (:
GIRLS- YOU GUYS ROCK. drills and camps and ghost stories and meetings... (:

REST

PAO - stop being gay.thanks for all the nice nice songs too!

KENNETH CHAN, TIAN WEE - thanks for ganging up with dom to bully me! =/

TRITON - Be honoured im writing this okay! thanks for all the nonsense msg-es and rants la okay!

SHAYN, ROSAMUND - for killing my boredom and for pool sessions!

SENIORS - YOU. GUYS. TOTALLY. ROCK. you'll be leaving and i'll be seeing you people lesser next year and all. but you people really made life more interesting. you know who you are and what you've done so yea (: - prata-ing, emcee-ing sessions and all

also i left the best for the last!

My parents, for nagging and caring for me. For teaching me right from wrong and making me feel guilty whenever ive done smethg wrong
Dom - THANKS for arguments and fights and tears and stealing your stuff (:

Most importantly, GOD
for all He's done
For not letting go of me, and forgiving me of my sins (:
I Love You

city of blinding lights

2007-01-01T03:19:00.000-08:00

CITY OF BLINDING LIGHTS

HAPPY NEW YEAR, PEOPLE!

well, been really busy the last few days

had BBQ with the sexy people, and the clips last friday.
it was good
had a great talk with pts and yea. there was ALOT of food!
saw jas too!

had watchnight last night too (:
it was G-R-E-A-T
sheng was EMBARRASSING me during the service!
and during retro night, what were we doing?
washing dishes.
thanks ar!

hohoho.
anyway, there's been LOADS of family gatherings lately.
its kinda cool.
am at jaime's crib now. hung out with her just now. and dom too

school's reopening like, in two days time
im dreading it, yet looking forward to it, i guess?

07's so gna be better! ( i hope)
shall put up dedications another day!
im toooo lazy =/

oh you look so beautiful tonight
Frontman of U2 got knighted, you see
the lyrics are SO for him =]

tagged!

2006-12-27T23:57:00.000-08:00

this is the THIRD post in like half an hour?
HAHAHAHA this is called addictionnn

BUT i have a good reason for this
KARINA TAGGED ME( or so they call it )
yea and i was trying to act blur but she caught me!

The Rules: The player of this game starts with "3 things he/she would love to get for Christmas" and also has to list "3 things he/she definitely does not want for Christmas". Then he/she tags 3 friends and lists their names.3

things I want for Christmas

1. Christmas is over.
2. It still is.
3. I know. Damn. Try harder next year

3 things I don't want, ever, for Christmas:

1. Paris Hilton marrying Ashton Kutcher ( HE IS MINE,YOU BITCH)
2. Stuffed toys. Oh Please
3. Having another pretty cake smashed into my face.

TAG TIME (:

1. KARINA ( don't act blur) thats right I know you can read.
2. KARINA ( don't act blur) thats right I know you can read.
3. KARINA ( don't act blur) thats right I know you can read.

Oh, new rule karinanananana (:
you can't repeat whatever you said!

rescueme

2006-12-27T23:34:00.000-08:00

OH. do listen to the radio this sunday alright?
TOP 100 COUNTDOWN
it'll be RAD.

Rock ; that's what i'm all about :)

holding on to feel the same

2006-12-27T23:27:00.000-08:00

HOLDING ON TO FEEL THE SAME

i feel so insecure
RACHEL is looking at me type this post,you see

Anyway, nothing much
BBQ! @baywater tmr
gna have mtg with orientation comm in the morning
kinda sian innit?

well, have been playing pool these few days i'm bored of it
And i'm super duper hungry now

oh well
today is another day when they're throwing it all in my face

ROSAMUND IS SO CUTE
my ass.
/GAGS

HELLO MITCHEL
and rosamund said she's so lame. she said YOU

HOHOHO. amusing innit?
shake things up a lil' yo
SMACK THAT.

OUT

I fell for you and now i'm falling apart

always and forever

2006-12-25T23:59:00.000-08:00

ALWAYS AND FOREVER

pretty great song(s)

today is gonna be the day
that they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow realised what you got to do
i don't believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
and all the lights that lead you there are blinding
there are many things that i would like to say to you
but i don't know how

i said maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all, you're my wonderwall

i said i love you
i'll always love you
always and forever (:

sugar sugar you get so fly

2006-12-25T23:48:00.000-08:00

SUGAR SUGAR YOU GET SO FLY

HOHOHOHO
MERRY CHRISTMAS!

i know this is a LITTLE bit late, but yea
what to do? no internet right

yea and i can't remember what i've been doing the past few days

but honestly? this christmas sucked ( minus the fact that my whole house was filled with cake, and i went to church, and that i watched night at the museum )
and yea, it wasn't anything special i guess

well, all i can say is that night at the museum is gooddddd
HILARIOUS

hmmm
not much to say here la
this place is getting boring.

feliz navidad, my friend (:

if i asked you to stay

2006-12-20T05:44:00.000-08:00

IF I ASKED YOU TO STAY

hey y'all
im back from dec camp!
to me, it was just a normal camp
though campfire wasnt that good, i LOVED the candles!
and i did have fun during this camp!
thanks to the exco, facs, the CAMPERS, and of course, the seniors!

anyway, im too lazy to elaborate much about the camp.
but i really hope the campers did learn stuff and that they'd understand why there were so little games
whatever it is, im really proud of them. because at least they did show signs of opening up even if all they did was attend workshops

and well, its dec again.
yet another christmas to celebrate
pretty soon, it'd be a new year.
it's been a hell of a year, really. though time did pass really really quickly.
learnt to make new friends and hey ho! my chinese improved okay!
so it doesnt matter if people like kenneth teo says my chinese sucks. HA (:

And i'm trying to learn to move on. though memories of you will always remain
i mean, i don't understand why it's always you i think of whenever i get down or depressed. its kinda funny because i do miss you alot.
it's been what, three years?
i even miss sitting with you
that day, i looking at class photos and just thinking of how you and #3 bullied me, even during PSLE. really smethg to laugh at (:
i hate myself for forgetting which date it really is. And i pray that you will be with God now.
remembering you is like a constant torture of why i didn't tell you about Him earlier, but yet, it's as kinda nice too.

Trust in Him, and He will give you strength.

time, it's all i ask for - time
i just need one more day

how to save a life

2006-12-17T02:22:00.000-08:00

MR BRIGHTSIDE

check this out yo,

KEYBOARD DUBBING

HILARIOUS.
look at jonlian! HAHAHA so so so kute. cute. yea whatever lah
credits to the orange wall and the keyboard at the YF room, innit?
love jon's expression especially after the person taking the video told him he started recording already ( sounded like some HONG )

jon lian jon lian jon lian
never fails to amuse me you know? what with all the crazy drawings on the sermon paper
and oh! during that retreat when i first met him and he was in my group? the rocking pebbles thing ( wasn't it? )
yea i remember him choking on tofu and spitting it out ( it WAS tofu right? )

and not for the first time in my whole 15 years, i so dig music
i mean, really. it's crazy and also, cool how music can change or affect one's opinion.

and also, these few days, i feel so well, disconnected
so torn apart from God
yea, so im praying it'll change for the better

and sorry varian! i CANNOT find any ice cream sticks at all!
OH, BUT I DID BUY CHRISTMAS PRESENTS FOR THE GUYS!
HO HO HO
you people should know what to expect LAH
and a present from me is already very very good okay!
i wasn't planning on buying any, but yea. it totally caught my eye
and im like HEY! THAT'S GAY! COOL.
and i bought it (:
dont expect much though

well, aren't you glad?

hohoho

2006-12-16T17:40:00.000-08:00

SHE SAYS

ho yea, that's a pretty good song

anyway, i really havent been blogging, nor using the computer
so yes, im kinda un-familiar with this mechanical freak in front of me now
well, what's there to say?
not much going on in my life
basically everyday i just slack, bum, watch HBO
and it's been raining constantly which makes everything so dreary
because of the rain, i can't tan, and i cant go down and watch those hot guys play tennis
also, the rain caused some high drama mama moments at bedok, but yes i shall NOT elaborate

oh yea, YDC chalet
it was okay lah. not the best, but not the worst either
there was a spiritual attack on the second day, when i arrived
and yes, almost all the girls have fallen ill
including me. damn this sore throat
ha. and THANK GOD (:
i mean, about leong converting.
i know i wasnt there when he converted, but yes, im so so so happy!
how many times have i argued with you? how many times have i tried to tell you?
it all didn't just go down the drain (:

also, there was this dinner thing on friday
with my mum's colleagues, EX
and i was so fascinated by ryan! he's a gay-bralite
a ncc kia. how amusing.

and there's dec camp tmr.
ima loser baby, so why don't you kill me?

hmm, what else. OH YES OH YES
MRS ANG GAVE BIRTH! haha
and we totally visited her after chalet. at her place.
her baby's tiny, with long fingers, and she hasn't been named yet. but we all know it's gna be TAMMY ( get it? )
and mrs ang has sme really crazy pets i tell you
two dogs, three cats. cute. no, Kute.

and toys 'r' us has never been so fun!
I DON'T WNA GROW UP, CAUSE I'M A TOYS 'R' US KID
catchy, but yes, irritation level is super high
it's that kind of song that only little children like and don't mind it being repeated like, forever

ho hum.
payable of death.

muthu samy and germs

2006-12-09T05:38:00.000-08:00

okay, i just forgot one little dee-tale.

congratulations muthusamy mutton (:
you see! i told you being my mortal rocks.

you better have at least ten cans of 100plus, COLD, ready when i see you in church next sunday!

i mean, SHE did ask me to look after sme muttons.

what a life, man

im bringing sexy back

2006-12-09T05:20:00.000-08:00

I'M BRINGIN' SEXY BACK

hey yo
sudden craving for some bacardi but noooo i will not give in to temptation
( please geraldine, there's one right in the fridge now )

anyway, i haven't blogged for eons
and the blog's been kinda stagnant
blame it on my busy busy social life (:
gb gb gb almost everyday. there's PD to finish and that's the major headache
we're currently sticking to running after you, though there are some disagreements?
well, you can't please everyone.

and then there's orientation and all to plan. and dec camp cmg up and all
though i've said this so many times before in this 15 years, i shall still say it again
life. is such a bitch.
and that's an understatement.

sudden scene flashes before my eyes- james bond is gna get castrated.
oh yea people, do watch casino royale.

and steven's gna get married. tmr
and because of the moving house and all, i barely have to time to use the net, much less type out proposals
so being here, at his place. rocks. though he's not home
gosh, smebody stop this fright train! im ranting.

what i really need now is sme cadbury and smeone to gossip with.
sadly, that's out of the question.

OH OH OH, i was watching IT'S PAT this morning ( THE JOYS OF HBO! how did i LIVE without it before? )
and smethg struck me.

is barney gay?

go figure.

it ends tonight

2006-12-04T08:47:00.000-08:00

IT ENDS TONIGHT

there's much to blog about. but im in no mood

oh geraldine!
look what you've done
you're a total major bitch.
you're selfish, demanding and ridiculous.

damn, i feel lousy ):

i don't want another pretty face

2006-12-01T05:45:00.000-08:00

I DON'T WANT ANOTHER PRETTY FACE

alright. not doing anything is really boring actually.
and im feeling so horrible!
my throat's hurting like nobodies business
and the flu is just utterly horrible
what's more, im getting this really pounding headache
AHHHH
somebody save me.

anyway, to the clips:
im gna book bbq pit on the 30th dec alright!
so yea, make yourself free
and we need outing!
MAJOR!

we could be more than just amazing (:

i almost wish you would've loved me too

2006-11-30T11:15:00.000-08:00

AND GET YOUR SEXY ON

you must not know about me,
thank you (:

I'M BRINGIN' SEXY BACK.

jack and the bean-sprout!

2006-11-30T09:25:00.000-08:00

WALAO. WAKAO. WAPIANG. LIKE THAT CALLED LOVE

what's up yo.

had drills today.
woke up at like, EARLY just to polish boots
made it to church with minutes to spare
did drills for three hours, though we were super slack today
after drills, lunched and had meeting with the orientation comm.
also decided to go rollerblading with them next sat!
at east coast! HOW COOL IS THAT HUH. HAHA
chit chat with the seniors and then walked around hrtland with ding before going home

totally conked out. because i was so damn tired.
and then when i woke up, i realised i was gna be late!
HAHA luckily daddy sent me to school (:
watched JACK AND THE BEAN-SPROUT! at national library!
IT'S. TOTALLY. HILARIOUS.
took pictures and then had supper! at fatimahs with kenneth teo.
bus-ed home with zainulabidin :D

ppg's on now.
and i am so free tmr (:

im gna slack my day away i guess

DONCHA WISH YOUR GIRLFRIEND WAS HOT LIKE ME, YAAR~

the best of both worlds

2006-11-29T06:36:00.000-08:00

THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS

g'day people.

okay, so where exactly do i start?

okayokay. i know.

SATURDAY 25th NOV

well, had mentoring session with the squad leaders and mentors and faith of course, at mac
after that, left for church!
YOUTHRALLY ROCKED.
the dance? it was so super cool.
and bong danced so well! i know, ironic. bong? dancing?
but yea, it was all cooollll
HAHA and worship was okay. and the video was HILARIOUS
ONE WAY..JESUS ( you gta listen to the way shao jun does it.)
and well, weihan's testimonial. was. touching?
so after rally, we all headed to mac for supper. talked cock sing song we are the best ar! ( sound familiar, celly?)

SUNDAY 26th NOV
i soooooo went for YF!
after TEN THOUSAND YEARS
yea, it was cool. went for service. and after that, i kinda hung out with mummy at suntec

MONDAY 27th NOV

had school. interview in the morning
ms ida and leong didnt turn up,so only me and pts were there to interview them.
hope it's okay, and that we made the right decision.
anyway, after that had 'squad bonding'
met up with sili, shao ping and ong ah ong
walked around ps and all, and then cjj and george joined us
caught HAPPY FEET
i was like laughing ALL THE WAYYYYY!
walked to lido area, and also admired the christmas lights (:
it was all so pretty and im so gna do it again yo!
so we had dinner at shaw and on the way, i spotted eye candy.
he was so cute! totally looked like seth from the OC, but cuter!
hahahaha :D

TUESDAY 28th NOV

PD PRACTICE!
THANK GOD IT WAS SO FRUITFUL
got sme cool stuff. and everything's going on well (:
oh, and CHARLENE GAVE BIRTH!
gwenneth. :D
she is not due yet though, and is soooo soooo tiny!
itsy bitsy teeny weeny, not-yellow polka dot, no bikini. yea
and that night, i saw a total trans. i was so amused
she/he mwas seatd in front of me, and next to my table was this ah beng
okay, so the ah beng kept staring at me for no reason lah.
and i was amused. and then i sawthe trans and was so disgusted i was amused!
everywhere i looked i was um-chio-ing to myself. its so hilarious.

WEDNESDAY 29th NOV

HOKAY.
had pd mtg this morning.
with zhen hui and jw and eileen and ong ah ong
it was okay. and then after that we slacked with joelynne, shiling and pohcher
we were laughing and talking nonsense
and we were talking about ghosts. lol
anyway, i had to leave halfway, and went to somerset to meet dom
no idea why, but i saw so many trans, cheeko peks and gays on the way!
oh, and also cheena men
i see until eyes crossed already =/
walked around with dom and we had personal spastic time at bk.
walked around smemore and talked nonsense.
train-ed down to toa paoh where we then left for bkt timah!
PARTAYE was GREAT!
me, glory and dorothy were like having balloon fights for like forever
and jonathan was hilarious. he kept trying to hit me, but i kept hitting it first!
ate too much but yes, the food was GREAT!
played too much, YOU'RE IT with glory. and hangman was nonsense! HAHA
anyway, im home now
and there's drills tmr
with lit musical at night at the national library

plus, im having a terrible headache now. and i feel like the room's tilted and i feel like im gna fall off the chair. yea
that bad.

so im gna go rest already.
which is what i've been doing these days - eating and slacking and sleeping
its a continuous cycle
luckily there's drills and running and all, or else i wldnt even bother to exercise.
HAHAHA

SUCH A FAT ONE (:

oh, and thank you triton for being there when i needed someone! (:

wonderwall

2006-11-24T04:55:00.000-08:00

THERE ARE MANY THINGS THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SAY TO YOU, BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW

hey y'all
i have no idea why, but everyone's going, y'all and yo and all that
cool yo
HAHAHA

it was another dreary and gloomy day today
life is such a bitch.

oh damn, and i almost forgot!
/smacks head.
gosh, what an idiot!

TAUFIQ is leaving tonight/tmr morning
i think 1+am yea, that's what he told us
so anyway,

TAUFIQ,
BON VOYAGE!
HAHAHAHAHA
TAKE CARE ALRIGHT!
HAVE FUN AT AUSTRALIA!
IM GNA MISS YOU!

though we're not close, but yea, you've been a GREAT junior!
TAKE CARE <3

( and i seriously doubt if you'll ever see this! but wtheck! )

and im catching homeward bound now
JAMIE IS SO SO SO CUTE!
he's the cutest!
awwwwww

okay, im gna go watch some shows now.
ta.

you're such a sweetie (:

65 songs since the day i've met you

2006-11-23T04:13:00.000-08:00

IT'S ONLY BAD IF YOU GET CAUGHT

okay, i really dont know where to start

well, okay, so yesterday. weds
hmm met up with ter and we went to meet the rest of the games comm at mac (:
did up the games and all, so all that's left is the proposals
which i swear i'd type out tmr!

so anyway, we totally slacked shits
at mac, then hrtland, then macs again
sat in one corner, where we just basically ate and ate and talked nonsense

pao came! and we trained down to somerset
met leong, and got tickets for casino royale
had dinner / lunch at long johns!
and then karinananannana came!
she was so tall lah! UNFAIR. ( she wore heels! comeon! )
so we caught casino royale, yea i mentioned that
bought popcornnn and the show wasnt that bad
i kept laughing nonstop. partly because the show was kinda bloody, and partly because i was FREEZING
hahaha
and james bond ALMOST got castrated! it was hilarious. and sick
he's one sick shit
HAHA
anyway, we took pictures EVERYWHERE and we were high!
i tell you, we're the coolest shits in town (:
i so miss hanging with them, and i've done it.
CHECK.

anyway, there was drills today
9-1
FOUR HOURS.
it was so damn HOT. hot hot hot.
we were ALL sweating like pigs or smethg
yea. and my feet died and rot. as usual you know.

anyway, had piano. and now im back home (:

school tmr. and then on monday, and tuesday, and everyday

come on, i need to get a life

will you still love me in the morning?
forever and ever, babe (:

hurt

2006-11-21T07:08:00.000-08:00

I'M SORRY FOR BLAMING YOU FOR EVERYTHING I JUST COULDN'T DO

Os have officially ended. ystd.
which means my Os is nearing, in like a year
and i totally cant wait for it to be over!
damn let's just get it over and done with.

so anyway, just came back from granny's house
spent like an hour + watching my cousins pack!
ITS SO UNFAIR!
i wna go taiwan too. okay, it doesnt have to be taiwan, but yea, i wna get out of singapore!
but that, of course, is not possible
it's not even taken into consideration
im jealous. but that's the price you gta pay for being a busy person like me!
meetings, dates, camps, oh EVERYTHING!
damn, im just so popularrr (:
HA.

holiday feels so un-holiday-ish

things i gta do:

1. finish up games proposal for dec SL camp
2. help leong to finalise stuff?
3. DRILLS TRG FOR NEXT YEAR'S COMPETITION
4. PD FOR NEXT YEAR'S COMPETITION
5. plan for sec one orientation camp
6. plan for sec one orientation - GB booth
7. plan for sec one orientation - GB tea party
8. HOLIDAY HOMEWORK !

that's all i can manage to remember lah
but eight important things to do is really too much.
hello help?

time management, time management, time management.

i cannot wait to step down / retire / hang up my boots / throw away my wkbooks & textbooks / pin up my brigader brooch ( hopefully ) / finish my Os / get at most 15 points for Os

OH MY MAMA.

i gta move along :D

these things i'll never say

2006-11-20T21:30:00.000-08:00

THESE THINGS I'LL NEVER SAY

HEY HO!

just wanted to blog so yea
WANTONMEE ROCKS (:

had a great headstart for PD.
so im praying it'll turn out really really well!

OUT!

aeon flux

2006-11-20T06:31:00.000-08:00

AEON FLUX

im catching aeon flux now

was just tempted to blog suddenly.
actually had so many things to say lah.
but now? a total blank

OH WELL.

will do smethg about my memory loss later tonight or smethg

and how retarded and aeon flux get?

GOODNIGHT!

oh, i miss danceworks!

say kNOw to drugs! (:

phonecalls!

2006-11-19T04:36:00.000-08:00

I CAN'T MAKE IT ON MY OWN,
I'M GIVING UP MYSELF

im halfway done
/ sighs in relieve

it's like a dark ominous cloud has disappeared over my head just as it's about to rain
a dark dark cloud that has been there for the past dont know how many days, threatening to pour all over me
and leaving me feel so. wel, paranoid!

i mean. really.
after exploring and calling non-stop, not to mention msg-ing and getting numbers
i feel. well, not too bad
so yea

thank you shima, celly and kenneth teo
and terence
and the phone directory in the office which gives OUTDATED numbers which also helps in my 'GERALDINE IS RETARDED' reputation
and also, ms ida's computer who stores the names of people who arent even prefects which totally helps to elaborate my already dying lousy reputation!

HAHAHAHA
ohweellll

ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE
/whistles

(:

it ends tonight

2006-11-19T02:21:00.000-08:00

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.

And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.

You're finding things
that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the ~~first~~ to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,

It ends When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Tonight
Insight

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

reality comes crashing to the ground

2006-11-18T08:48:00.000-08:00

REALITY COMES CRASHING TO THE GROUND

alright. the wedding was great!
DING looked so so so feminine and pretty!
the girls were simply GORGEOUS :D

many many yuying-ians were there, though i recognised only a few
and we took little pictures ):
ohwell. food was GREAT. especially the satay!

detoured to town with ber and ding
shopped and walked and took neos!
SO FUN. it has been damn super duper long since i last took neos (:

and anyway, bernice the rich decided to have a drink at nydc
ended up sharing OREO OBSESSION
it's really good. and its $9.50 or smethg
HAHAHAHA

anyway, met up with leong and varian
was standing at somerset mrt for ten years
and guess who who who i saw!
OLGA AND DA SAO :D :D :D
olga didnt smell the same though, that's the only sad part
and dasao looked soooo good!

anyway, we caught covenant
it was a pretty good movie
but kinda. satanic?
yea. its pretty cool
though some parts totally reminded me of lit

okay, here comes the JOKE OF THE DAY
shall start from the start.
so we were all waiting for the mrt at somerset.
and we were damn bored, so leong tried to be HIP and told us jokes
cold cold cold jokes.
and like, yea. we totally werent getting it. HA
so he racked his brains and suddenly he told us smethg that happened to him and valentine and guo ming
so he told us on the train and then we were walking to change to NEL lah
and before that, we were joking that the last train left already and all
so we were happily walking, and he was saying this ' AND SO THE GUY IN RED ..."
and then. suddenly, there was an announcement. smethg about LAST TRAIN.
and guess what!
LEONG STARTED RUNNINNGGGG
i was stun for like, ten seconds. varian too. it was a total WTH situation!
and then he said: LAST TRAIN!
and we were like, HUH?
and the we ran down the escalator!
SO DRAMA
and then the announcement was repeated. ( we were already reaching the LOOONNGGG escalator to the NEL line LAH )
and then i heard it carefully. it said. LAST TRAIN TO HARBOURFRONT.
and then i just STOPPED. and LAUGHED.
and told varian, WALAO. last train to harbourfront. we going pungol RIGHT!
and we slowly walked and since leong was running away, far far away from us
we didnt bother to tell him. we just LAUGHED
AND LAUGHED
AND LAUGHED

HILARIOUS!
he was so paiseh LAH!
really, joke of the day can!

i mean, he RAN like nobodies business!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
unglam!

~~tomorrow's~~ today's sunday.
which means, tmr is monday
which ALSO means i gta start making phonecalls dont know how many hours later. SAD

DAMN, CALEB ( in the covenant ) is so damn bloody cute.

i'm living this lie.
this lie is you (:

is it saturday yet?

2006-11-17T16:37:00.000-08:00

IS IT SATURDAY YET?

CONGRATULATIONS MS CHEN!

it's probably kinda late but yea whatever
today's your big day
the first time you're gna walk down that teeny weeny aisle in your nice pretty pretty wedding gown!

anyway,
ystd i went to the parliament thing lah
it was kinda cool, and not as boring as i expected
maybe cause i had crazy people like kalvinder and zainul all around! (:
after that, we got back to school
and me and pts had 'meeting' with ms neo
MDM LEE'S DAUGHTER IS TO DIE FOR!
her name is kimberly ( is that how you spell it? )
and she's got beautiful eyes!
i have no idea how old she is though. but she's adorable (:

so anyway, i detoured to pts's house to do my nails
and rushed down to city hall!
it was happening! HAHA
saw zaid and zhi chao at kovan mrt
and then at dhoby, when i was about to board the train to city hall
Out came KENNETHCHAN. happily.
i talked to him and realised he was gna meet my brother at ps
and then as we were talking, i totally spotted ANNA! in the crowd
HAHA it was funny lah
but they made me miss my train!

so i finally made my way to marina
and totally went shopppiinnnggggg!

got a top, and belt and earrings
oh, and i saw SHERRY at times!
i know, of all places lah
HAHAHAHAHA

cant wait for later.
only thing is that woof and ong ah ong cant make it! ):
they got drill camp at HQ. sad case

and there was total eye candy at city hall mrt !

oh yea baby, it is (:

everything

2006-11-16T09:11:00.000-08:00

find me here
and speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you

you are the light
that's leading me
to the place
where I find peace again

you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting

you are the life
to my soul
you are my purpose
you're everything

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this yeah

you calm the storms
and you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
~~you won't let me fall~~

you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
take me deeper now

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

cause you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything

you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything

you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything

you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

i'd kill to have jason wade as my boyfriend! :D

you gave me wings when im falling

2006-11-16T06:38:00.000-08:00

YOU GAVE ME WINGS WHEN I'M FALLING

my feet have died
it is currently rotting

WHY?
because i had drills trg today

every 2 mistakes we made, pioneers gta run FOUR rounds
walao.
in total, i ran like, i think 39 rounds?
about 5. something KM
CAN DIE
but it felt good. sweating and running and pushing myself (:

after drills, varian dragged ME, jiang, adam, duanjin, and jintao to compass
for what?
SOME CHEAPO THING
well done!
had yoshi for lunch. was hilarious

and jiang and i made a pact (:
WHEN WE GET OUR FIRST PAY, WE WILL TREAT EACH OTHER 200GRAMS OF FAMOUS AMOS

and because varian was feeling guilty, ( plus the fact that he has KACHING! now )
he bought butterscotch and pecan cookies!
MY FAVOURITE (:

anyway, left to meet mummy at cheenaworld
walked for ten miles
and detoured to ps
walked for another ten miles
but sadly, i didnt get anything
my mother, on the other hand, got like three tops from the same shop =/

had dinner with audrey =]
and came home.

busy day again tmr.
shall elaborate again. (:

and prison break is a really great show.
do watch! (:
PLUS, the guy's a total hottie.
he looks so. so. intense? yea. like cool
I LIKE <3

it's easier to run, than facing this pain here all alone

thunder :D

2006-11-15T04:18:00.000-08:00

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation;
what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know, whoa
Today I'm on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I don't know

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think I'll make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road
That's taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder, and I said

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder

hard to walk this path alone, hard to know which way to go

2006-11-15T03:29:00.000-08:00

IT'S HARD TO WALK THIS PATH ALONE, HARD TO KNOW WHICH WAY TO GO

i know. so alter bridge. i mean, it is
and i would kill for some creed now

today i woke up
and today, i went to school
today, i went to school for chemistry project
today, i lunched with cheryl and leong after going to school for chemistry project

okay, had macs (:
and then i detoured to cheryl's house
did the geog project thing until like 3.45
and rushed home. got into my full u and left.
for school

PHOTOTAKING was so FUN! :D
ms chen looked GREAT in her ( faith's, actually )uniform
and it was just awesome

anyway, im now home
yea, it's a boring day
and it's gna be a boring day tmr too

GEOG in the morning
then DRILL TRG from 10-12
and PIANO at 2-3

kill me, would you?
somebody rip my heart out, and leave me here to bleed

these things i'll never say

gta pick myself up, when do i start

2006-11-14T09:10:00.000-08:00

GOTTA PICK MYSELF UP, WHEN DO I START?

this is hilarious.
as in the paris hilton's video
what's it called?
nothing in this world. yea THAT video
lol

i really wna go shopping!
i dont know why but just trying on stuff makes me happyyy (:

anyway, extended programme ends this friday
Thank God :D
though that doesnt mean the burden's off my shoulders
damn.

when the stars go blind, and the darkness starts to flood your eye
when you're falling behind. i will carry you (:

i want my oreo frappe

2006-11-13T04:50:00.000-08:00

I WANT MY OREO FRAPPE

call me spoilt
call me pampered.
but im seriously CRAVING for an oreo frappe NOW!

anyway, i woke up early today to go pts's house
we were SUPPOSED to do our chem presentation
but ended up looking for eye candy in friendster
and looking through our primary school friend's pictures and telling old stories
all that makes the world go round, doesnt it?
ding and woof came from amaths and we all slacked somemore

ding left while the rest of us went to school for f&n practical lesson
it was so damn bloody humid. the weather, i mean
we were sweating like pigs, if pigs could sweat

i made choc chip cookies, kal made spongecake
and bernice made banana cake
it all tasted good, but then it was really tooooo much

joined jiang and varian, with leong
and we headed to harbourfront cause jiang wanted to repair his camera
walked around vivo for smetime
and harbourfront centre too!
saw ZAID (:
and well, lunch! @ bk wasnt that great
hahaha
i totally stepped on this guy's foot. like major ouch
and he looked at me like i was some nut from imh or smethg
hahahaha
i was just too bloody eager to get THAT bk crown thing, you see
it's definitely the in thing now, and EVERYONE wants one!

walked around somemore and we decided to go visit the DOULOS ship
only after like ten years then did i realise it was THE doulos ship!
hahaha
and i saw bella! (:
i really really really miss her
she looks good. great even
hoping we can catch up someday (:

anyway, we bus-ed home from harbourfront
the ride was like about 1hour 1/2?
yea. it was expected anyway

there isn't school tmr
so tonight im gna stay up late and basically bum

i feel like being all, philosophical and stuff
but nah, not now
all i want is just, my oreo frappe
anyone? IM FREE TO HANG OUT AND HAVE SOME OREO FRAPPE IN THOSE COOL LITTLE GLASS MUGS THINGYS! =]

oh, i totally do not mind shopping too.

can i be your memory?

2006-11-12T06:50:00.000-08:00

This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
I'll tear us apart.
Can I be your enemy?
Losing half a year.
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything.

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
Tearing out my heart.
I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
(I'd be your memory)
Feelings disappear.
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?

the truth about forever

2006-11-12T05:10:00.000-08:00

THE TRUTH ABOUT FOREVER

im currently stuck on 'if everybody cared' but nickelback
its really good.

today was okay
went town-ing with audrey and dom and all
bought a skirt
and saw sharon and karin ( brother's classmates)
sharon's SO TALL
im so damn jealous
the best part?
okay there's TWO best parts

i had famous amos cookies (:
YUM :D
butterscotch with pecan, and choc chips

best part 2? EYE CANDY!
SO MANY
but i totally fell for this korean guy. walao. i almost froze on the spot lah
he had this korean hairstyle going on
and his smile was so. WOW. and his dimples just made him so damn cute

yea, once again. geraldine is in love.
HAHAHA

if everyone cared, then nobody dies

2 minutes past midnight

2006-11-11T08:09:00.000-08:00

TWO MINUTES PAST MIDNIGHT

hey hey hey
i got my results bck on friday
yea and to save the trouble of trying to remember my results and all?
please, it's all here

ENGLISH A2
CHINESE B3
MATHS D7
SCIENCE A2
CMBINED HUMANS A1
FOOD AND NUTRITION B4
LITERATURE B3

yes wth
my results are totally so damnit lousy.

class position 3rd
level position 25th
NOT GOOD ENOUGH

literature has been stuck at B3 the whole year round. so nothing new
but still, disappointing. f&n. i have NO idea what happened!
from A1 to a B4
science and chinese were disappointing. i was expecting a 1 and 2 respectively
ohwell, its over so i shan't brood over it

been thinking about the jc/poly thing
i know, i havent even reached sec 4 yet lah (lol)
but i've already made up my mind.
im not gna enter JC. even the pretty sajc uniform wont tempt me! ( sorry damien )
my goal is to np. where i'd take mcm
and then after that scholarship and i'd go overseas
it has been decided

now, main thing is to strive hard and work towards my 15 points and below for Os
starting off, PASSING MY MATHS first!

so people, please pray that i'd do well
that i'd be kiasu for the first time in my 10 years of education
that i'd totally mug like crazy and stress myself but not get overstress

yea, i know
i sound so. so DESPERATE
but seriously! seeing them all mug like shits. and getting so nervous. and what. even more nervous
makes me so damn freaked out
HAHAHAHAHA

anyway, im gna be REAL busy this holiday
three camps ( YES PEOPLE. I CAN GO FOR P6 CAMP )
and also, alot of planning to do for next year
and not to forget! DRILL COMPETITION
trgs and all
which reminds me, PD formation!

He will come and save me (:

keep my feet on the ground

cute without the E

2006-11-10T07:10:00.000-08:00

CUTE WITHOUT THE E

life has been great
life has also been a bitch
both are understatements

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOOF!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADAM!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENTHIA!

so many people's birthday!
but i only managed to celebrate woof's birthday (:

anyway, we cheated juiwei's feelings this morning
felt so darn evil! HAHAHA
we went to NYP. and i swear we were totally slacking all the way
returned and went for cell
worship was kinda cool but me leong and pts had to leave for xinghua after worship ended ):
xinghua had some kind of musical, so ms ida wanted all the lit students to go
overall, it wasnt that bad
but we all laughed like idiots! seated in front of us were the primaryONEs
i made friends with five of them sitting in front of me. all so cute can!
anyway, the funniest part was the singing part ( for goodness sake, it IS a musical)
and also, when smething happened during a scene ( like when the FAKE vase pretended to break when it was dropped on the floor), EVERYONE in front of us shot up
they were out of their chair in less than a second you wouldnt even have time to blink!
it was hilarious and made all of us laugh like nobodies business
and in less than a minute, the teachers were there, shushing them and TRYING to get them to sit down. lol

so after the musical, went to pts house to finish up the GOTCHA! present for woof!
had dinner at PIZZA HUT
and it was so cool. i havent had such a GREAT meal with such great company for awhile
so everything was nice (:

bus-ed home
and the worst thing that happened today?
MY PIANO'S OUT OF TUNE LAH

i was so super keen on practicing the piano!
AND THEN
i played C, still okay
then D, E, F .
and then G. sounded so damn off.

pekchek of hearing the out-of-tuned keys so i totally didnt wna practice anymore HAHA

someone help me out here?
im so into you i didn't even realise.

lsat of illusions

2006-11-09T18:11:00.000-08:00

LAST OF ILLUSIONS

first time im blogging since like what?
two days?
HAHAHA
so much for researching yea

this feels so damn illegal

anyway, im using one of the computers at nyp now
its pretty cold, and their msn sucks
we cant send, or recieve files we wna send to each other
and they block alot of sites
like friendster
how retarded!

so,
gna go do my stuff already
ta.

im not gonna stand here and wait

2006-11-07T04:05:00.000-08:00

IM NOT GONNA STAND HERE AND WAIT

hey babes!
i take notice of like, a pack of cigs in front of me
im so amused
it reads:

MARLBORO

and then below it,

Smoking Kills

yea the hell we know smoking kills
so why are people still smoking these days?
and so into marlboro too!
hello, if i was a smoker and when i bought a pack and read the words SMOKING KILLS under the brand i'd be thoroughly disgusted.
not to mention, major turn-off but yea, humans these days really fascinate me

anyway, i hate waking up
especially in the mornings
it's like so dumb.
i happened to have this really cool, nice, sweet dream last night ( no, im not gna share. PLUS i cant really remember it too. but it DEFINITELY has a hunk, a guitar, the beach, candles and singing. yea you can imagine. )
and then BEEP! ( no that wasn't how it sounded like, but yea) my handphone alarm sounded
as usual, i snoozed for ten years but i cldnt get back to sleep to continue my dream
yea, you get it
the hellish life of geraldine chua ( no scandals included!)
it'll be coming out real soon, i tell you, real soon

so extended programme was really boring today
it bored the hell outta me.
2 periods of chem, then 1 period of maths
had recess, and after that, one more period of maths and one more period of chem
i know, tell me to get a life but what amuses me is that i seriously doubt whoever who planned my timetable
doubting his/her organisation skills i mean.
how amusing.
why not just one shot maths and one shot chem
who knows? if they did it that wayi may get lucky and by now i would have died and gone to heaven
hallelujah

but lucky for me, i had the most silly looking people beside me!
they weren't exactly silly looking, but who cares how they look? (:
they crack me up! <3
my lovely kalvinder made me laugh like nobodies business when she pointed out that bernice looked like a kidnapped kiddo in her pictures ( the very very first one of the collection in pts's wallet) and that in another one, she just looked like, a maid
it just kept me going for life. i swear, it did (:

and so after being bored til the life was sucked out of me through the last period of chem. ( HAHA imagine me, with life being sucked out HAHAHAHA )
there was GB meeting which lasted for about an hour?
yea and then i wanted to pia home, but realised i didnt have no key
WELL DONE, GERALDINE
you totally deserve a slap for such great work LAH
and so i called,
and called ,
and called,
and called
but yea, somehow my family kinda disappeared to never-ever-EVER-land and there i was looking all retarded
decided to watch people play soccer instead, and it was boring too
lol nothing seems to keep me interested these few days.

hello? someone entertain me please!

hahaha and i reached home anyway ( it was a sooner or later thing. i got stuck with later )
and piano was. okay. shant elaborate.
but i'll give it the only comment it deserves.
none.

now im at tony's, which explains why the pack of cigs in front of me
seriously LAH. smoking is bad, you know!
of course you know.
everone knows. they just dont give a damn, do they?

WALAO.
my parents decided to walzt off to grapevine with their hippy uncle, aunty friends and not invite me!
WALAO.
HAHAHAHA

i soooooo would die for an oreo frappe NOW!

there's a love that could fall down like rain

and there was two

2006-11-06T03:56:00.000-08:00
AND THERE WAS TWO

im doing some really fast major blogging now

agenda :

LIT - 3 essays to write
- one page research on WITCHES
CHEM - some presentation thing which i totally forgot about! (HELP)
ENGLISH - worksheet
MATHS - worksheet

thank God i already finished my geog corrections
otherwise now, i'd be down on my knees crying shit
lol

today, the 24 of us ( 25 plus jeremy who left early) went to NYP
it was some food science thing lah
first was STEWART ( believe me )
he taught us some emulsifier thing
i gotta admit, it was boring!
practical, teabreak and then some theory
and lunch!
LUNCH was HILARIOUS!
we were all decked out in uniform, and YES, EVERYONE was STARING!
kalvinder was over-reacting, but for a good reason
we were so embarrased!
had macdonalds, and pts somehow managed to persuade me to eat mcspicy!
FAT yea
and we did, laughed alot
mrs ang, i realise not for the first time, is absolutely MAD
CRAZY, SCREW-LOOSE
yea, you name it
after that, we had this workshop on some sugar thing
it was FUN i tell you
but we were all damn bloody high
i tell you lah, its the high intake of sugar LAH
after like dont know how many hours stuck at NYP, we were all feeling pretty crazed up
seriously, you should have seen yanyi
and bernice! ohmytian!
those two were seriously mad!
they were acting meiya and zhiyun-ish
me, mrs ang, kalvinder, and woamshing were all so damn amused
i've got the videos and SO many pictures in the camera!
so please, do contact me if you wna see it
free viewing dont worry, the look of pure amu8sement on all ye's faces would make me satisfied already (:

im not gna stand here and wait (:

oh what the hell

2006-11-04T07:28:00.000-08:00
there is an unexplainable need for a shoulder now
not a listening ear
hell no
just a shoulder
dammit i hate this helpless feeling.

you made me breakfast in bed

2006-11-04T07:08:00.000-08:00
YOU MADE ME BREAKFAST IN BED

i feel so really, completely, honestly, totally screwed
fucked up
VERY fucked up
mind the language, geraldine
but seriously man

well done, geraldine
you did a damn good, no GREAT job in making life even more screwed up
like it wasnt already shit before today

HA.
the irony of it all

what a total shithead i am lah

someone, pull the trigger please.
damn right pull it now

i could get used to this

2006-11-03T02:50:00.000-08:00
You make me breakfast in bed
When I'm mixed up in my head
You wake me with a kiss
I could get used to this

You think I look the best
When my hair is a mess
I can't believe you exist
I could get used to this

Because I know you're too good to be true
I must have done something good to meet you

'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this

I'm feeling it comin' over me
With you it all comes naturally
Lost the reflex to resist
And I could get used to this

You love the songs I write
You like the movies I like
There must be some kind of twist
But I could get used to this

Because you listen to me when I'm depressed
It doesn't seem to make you like me less

'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this

I'm feeling it comin' over me
With you it all comes naturally
Lost the reflex to resist
And I could get used to this

If there's a dark side to you I haven't seen it
Every good thing you do feels like you mean it

'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this

I'm feeling it comin' over me
With you it all comes naturally
Lost the reflex to resist
And I could get used to this

'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this

You make me breakfast in bed
When I'm mixed up in my head
You wake me with a kiss
And I could get used to this

i could get used to you
but sadly, i didn't get the chance to -

what was it you wanted?

2006-11-03T01:56:00.000-08:00
WHAT WAS IT YOU WANTED?

this feels Great with a capital G
i mean seriously LAH
first time since eons ago since i've bummed like this
sleeping and waking up and watching tv and reading and sleeping again
this is life man!
but sadly, only for today

hello bernice and whoever's not at school!
it wasnt planned dont worry

it doesnt matter, i dont care (:

infection!

2006-11-02T07:09:00.000-08:00
INFECTION!

my wound/cut i mean
it's gross
pus-sified and yellow
SICK

school was boring
yea
that's all i shall say
why? because it's boring of course
though jamming after that was really cool
sang til my lungs almost died and my throat almost exploded
if it could, it would

advised kelvin
and know what?
i should heed my own advice

LEONG, 2nd NOVEMBER 2007 !

if i ever felt this way

2006-11-01T06:10:00.000-08:00
IF I EVER FELT THIS WAY

there's so much i wna say
so much i wna do
but i won't
let's just say blogger's definitely NOT the place LAH

school today, AS USUAL
usual table talks!
THEY MAKE ME HAPPY (:
hahahahaha
i love lit! i really do
surprisingly too
and i really dont want ms ida to leave next year!
PLEASE, wait until we like finish our Os or smethg lah yea
and me, pts and woof were super duper high in class!
we were basically doing girl-talking
discussing what to wear for ms chen's wedding and all!
HOW FUN! wheeeeeeee!

crapped a little, crapped ALOT
the sec 4s had science-bio today
and art in the afternoon
the afternoon passed REALLLY REAALLY slowly
i was sitting in the meeting cheryl and the rest had
so amusing! and of course, we were openly expressing our disgust and displeasure but i shall not talk about it here, lest i get sued (:
also, we ate like dont know how many packets of OHEY! ( my reccommendation of course! ) and told ghost stories! FREAKY.

detoured to heartland! with cheryl and JIN YUE ( you gta say it the way SHE says it! )
cheryl wanted to pass the blue gayish hairband to kenneth teo but what i really wanted was my Bubbletea!
The Bubbletea (:
Chocolate MilkTea with Pearl
i meellltt just to ~~say~~ type it out!
anyway, i kept putting off the event for having my first bubble tea after breaking camp,and i admit, im really really proud of myself
and im glad i did it today, and that i didnt have to wait any longer!
came back to school, slacked somemore
they were all pestering me to write stuff while leong was busy polishing his boots
i was just singing along and wasting leong's batteries (:
they left and suddenly, everyone disappeared!
i decided to clean up The Room by myself!
okay, with a little help from pao lah
THANKS PAO ! =]
and wow, the room DEFINITELY needs cleaning!
it's like, filled with dust
and i bet it's still dusty
also, i hurt my feelings to dump three half-filled tubs of planta
but well, I HAD TO. it was turning sour! ( yea, it reeks! ask pao AGAIN )
had dinner with the usual plus apple the tai-tai!, huiqun the great! and terry the tall!
yea rubbish! but dinner was good
bus-ed home feeling paranoid because of all the ghost-story telling we did in the afternoon
i swear i was worried the lift would stop at the 4th floor HAHAHA

and my so-called- scrape is like sick
i think its infected
and it still hurts!
dont ask me why. but it's bloody. =/

oh,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIYI MA'AM! =]

right now -

i feel all fucked up

2006-10-31T04:17:00.000-08:00
CLASSIFIED

you know what?
ALL guys should learn how to play the guitar!

anyone interested?
you gotta play the guitar and sing for me! (:

please call: 99009009 (:

there really isn't a need

2006-10-31T03:56:00.000-08:00
THERE REALLY ISN'T A NEED

a need for love-love that is
there really isnt a need for relationship at my age

ohwell today was another day
had maths and lit before break
and then off we went to science centre!
the journey was retarded! we were playing the 'name the country' game
yea, fun lah
and spastic
JOKE OF THE DAY?
I for IGLOO!
( i wont blame you if you dont understand. inside joke )
yep you guessed correctly, bernice peh
who else right?

science centre was really okay
fun yet boring
took a whole load of pictures
and while doing this balancing thing, someone pushed me and i fell!
scraped my ankle, and it started bleeding
i was ignoring it until i stained my socks!
HAHAHAHAHA. joke

left and mrt-ed down to ps with leong
met up with terence and lendl
had bk! and we were all talking about leong being a change man
but of course, this is subjective
and yes, you can choose to NOT believe it
pao came and we caught THE GUARDIAN minus lendl!
we were also very fascinated by penguins and we're planning to watch HAPPY FEET!
it's so cute LAH

anyway, i was like, mesmerised by ashton ALL OVER AGAIN
i mean, the first time i met him
he was on 'the 70's show' and i was like, hey! who's that!
it was love at first sight
and then we kinda drifted away you know
he became more and more famous and me?
well, i started dating zac, and beckham, and chris pike, matt damon, josh harnett, even local stars like UTT, and oh, SO MANY LAH
but ultimately, i knew
i knew ashton was the one
when i found out he was with demi moore, i was SHOCKED!
that old person over me! i got my revenge though
brad pitt had been chasing me for over a year, while fighting with chad
and i mean, jennifer aniston was really nice. but i guess she was really selfish
when ashton got tgt with demi moore, i totally decided, HEY geraldine, im not gna wait
and yea, i gave brad pitt a chance
he was so sweet, and his eyes were so blue!
but sadly, angelina came into the picture
i have to admit, she's H-O-T LAH
and once again, i realised i treated brad like a brother still
it was a sad love story
but today, seeing ashton in action made me feel so, so alive again!
it didn't matter that his hair was pangsai
he took my heart away
awwwwwwwwwwww

okay! please! that was pure nonsense
well, it wont hurt to try right?

pck's on now!

i don't even know why

i won't run after you if you don't want me to

2006-10-30T03:57:00.000-08:00
I WON'T RUN AFTER YOU IF YOU DON'T WANT ME TO

today was the start of the extended programme
reached school and had table talks!
but we were chased away from OUR tables cause it was for the O'level candidates LAH
frc was in the OLD parade square!
HILARIOUS!
i was like laughing laughing laughing
and everything seemed so amusing can

school passed really fast
i don't know why, it just did
but yea, same old same old
there's still homework and such
even more than usual!
B-O-R-I-N-G!

anyway after school i wanted to escape home
ended up in MAC with varian and jiang
slacked for a little while
and then jolene and ks joined us
after that they dragged me back to school
was watching them play soccer
and i was just, well, pondering

Thank God for such wonderful friends,really (:

i made a mistake
but i won't make it again

ai wo hai shi ta?

love can be so boring

2006-10-29T05:01:00.000-08:00
LOVE CAN BE SO BORING

ni hao ma!

i really don't know how im feeling
or how i should be feeling
but it's okay, life goes on (:

had breakfast with daddy today
GUESS WHO I SAW?
MS SUPPIAH!
i was like eating my kaya guni bread, and like i looked up
and a sense of familiarity hit me
and im like, who's she?
and she stared at me i stared at her
and she was like, geraldine?
i was o surprised!
it is, after all, SIX whole years since i last saw her
no not saw, but talked
she was my p4&5 form teacher!
SERIOUSLY MAN

okay, i feel so damn old now
but its okay, life goes on!
HAHAHAHA

anyway, the speaker today was so HIP
if you know what i mean!
but he was really funny and gay, as in happy
and i was sitting next to muthusamy zacheriah hong
and tee liang sheng
so it was endless laughter and nonsense all the way!
told sheng and bong about it (:
in a way, im relieved
but also, i dont know
hahahahahaha

lunched at mac
with bong, sheng, muthu, joshua and kenneth
they were all bullying me lah!
and LI HUA was so funny
( li hua's the macdonald's girl)

met my parents
and i totally fell in love all over again! ( not with my parents, hell no!)
Now, he's FOUR years old
eats chocolate pancakes but most of the chocolate's go to his face
he was born in london, england
and get this! he has a really cute smile AND dimples!
walao, im addicted to him lah
lol

shopped in j8 for a teeny weeny while
and got home and slept again
i dont know!
how many hours can a person sleep in a day man!
LOL

there's EP tmr
how boring
no life, no love
no eye candy at all!

so you sailed away, into the grey sky morning <3

just walk on by

2006-10-28T16:36:00.000-07:00
JUST WALK ON BY

this is ridiculous.
i have been in camp for three days
and i have 254 emails in my inbox
RIDICULOUS!

anyway, to briefly summarise the camp
it was okay, good, not bad
it wasnt perfect and not the best camp i've attended
but it wasnt the worrrssttt either
so yea, really wna thank william, alex, edwin, maegan, jesrel
CELLY, kerxin, junjian, teo
ms ida, mr neo, mdm amrit, mr teo, and mr wu
OH and mr hashim! HAHAHHA

facs, great job
and campers were obviously, the highlights
they improved ALOTTTT :D

and now im just gna sleep some more
because my brain's not functioning well
lack of 30 something hours of sleep because SOME PEOPLE decided to stay up last night/this morning!

Life Goes On - REBAN RAI (:

i'll act like nothing ever happened. nothing at all

what a joke

2006-10-25T04:41:00.000-07:00
HAHAHAHA
PRINCE WILLIAM!
im gna marry the REAAALLLL one!

imitation. lol

you're my sky

2006-10-25T04:28:00.000-07:00
YOU'RE MY SKY

let's go fly some kites!
or KITING, as triton calls it (:

today was graduation day!
shall not elaborate
but i hate reading names!
and standing there was well, awkward
i didnt know if i should laugh or cry
i laughed by the way, lol

everyone's addicted to princess hours
yea

and i've been thinking
human beings are really so stupid
some are naturally born stupid. for others, it's an acquired skill
but yea, stupidity makes alot of differences

why does one choose someone who treats them like shit, when there's someone nicer out there
i dont know.
someone's out there waiting for you, doing nice sweet stuff
but there some people are, waiting stupidly for someone who'd never give them a second glance; basically wasting their time.

it takes time too though. takes time to really know who's the one
it takes time to really understand, to really feel the pain
but they say, its never too late yea?

but yea, i was just thinking
WTH.
single pringle, free to mingle!

and there's camp tmr. until saturday.
somehow im dreading it. dont ask me why
i'm seriously lacking in time management skills.
i really should do something about this
because so many things happening all at once gives me a headache and makes me super duper irritated.

do i have to cry for you?

can you feel the cold tonight?

2006-10-24T05:50:00.000-07:00
CAN YOU FEEL THE COLD TONIGHT?

graduation ceremony tomorrow.
i'm so so so so so gna miss all of them!

thank you ;
jasmine, ivy, grace quek, shima,
caroline, jeanice, julie
huiqun, apple, terry, berlinda, wai mun, newman, jianrong
shan, izwan, jordan, shunli
and everyone one else who made my 3 years so enjoyable
(i'm sorry if i missed anyone out)

i'd REALLY really really really miss you guys!

i love you all (:

when no one else was looking

2006-10-23T08:16:00.000-07:00
you're my sunset by the beach

the stars up in the night sky

my symphony from the backstage

the footprints in my life

the lyrics to my scores

the words to my script

the actor on my stage

the raindrops at my feet

you found me -

better than you

2006-10-23T06:30:00.000-07:00
BETTER THAN YOU

yea, im better than you!
HAHAHAHA

school started today.
woke up with aches and my body screaming I WANT SLEEP
but sadly, attire check at 7. so yea, i cldnt crawl back into my warm, nice, cosy bed ):

school was boring.
had meeting. but i think we havent totally settle everything yet
too lazy!
gta do it all by wednesday
sigh. i hate this!
seriously. i hate planning.
i'm just totally not cut out for the job. i'm totally not responsible. and my time management is horrid!
so next year, i'm really gna step back
and just concentrate on my studies, my Os

had prata with huiqun today! (: (: (:
it was so fun!
and she got TEN POINTS for prelims!
that's what i call smartass.
i'm so jealous. but we already decided I'LL get six points!
hahahaha. but i know it wouldnt happen =/

oh, HAPPY HARI RAYA PUASA -eve!

there you were
standing in front of me
an angel in the shadows of the darkness
in the backscene of the show
and when the curtain falls
there you'll be
watching from the sidelines

but then i'll know
it's you, it has always been
you're that special star, my morning;bright.
it's just that i have been blind
running in the darkness where there was no light
but now i realise, i know it's true
it's you, it's you, it's you
thanks for making me see through.

water parade cheer!

2006-10-22T06:16:00.000-07:00
DRINK WATER GOOD
DRINK WATER GOOD
DON'T DRINK WATER GET HEATSTROKE
GET HEATSTROKE, YOU WILL DIE
THEN THE WHOLE SQUAD WILL CRY
YUUUUUMMMM SEEEENNNGGGG!

/drinks water

I KNOW!
it's so amusing right!
chrystal ma'am thought of it (:

water parade cheer! =]

safe inside myself

2006-10-22T03:33:00.000-07:00
SAFE INSIDE MYSELF

this. sucks .
i am like typing without trying to move my arms
my whole body is aching alright
this totally sucks

so like, we had drill camp ytd
reached church at 7.15
and had breakfast
and then we did some buddha clap thing with our 1.5 litre water bottles
it. honestly. sucked.
and because of that, my arms are aching sore!
and had to change into full-uniform
did drills the WHOLE day!and punishments were scary.
we did push-ups
and i cut my knees. not really cut lah.
because we did girl's style and we did in the basketball court.
it was really tiring
after lunch, this DI came
he tested everyone, but the dings, on drill stage one
so like, we just helped out by training the rest
and then he came and watch the drill comm. do drills!
i swear i sucked. i totally screwed up on the homak and the pandan thing
and then after that me, bernice, juiwei, shitian, shiying and joelynne got picked out
and then we started getting REEEAAALLLLYYYY nervous!
we had to do drills again and then we were dismissed
went fo YA. and then after that, we went to run
at the park
i'm so serious! and i had to DRAAGGG my squadmates lah.
we ran about six rounds, which was okay for me
cause we were slow jogging.
then we did like about 50 crunches
and like 50 squats
THE HORROR
and after that, we went back to church
we slacked in the chapel for a teeny little while
and had dinner.
did a little more drills, had to train for the inter-squad competition lah
and after that changed back into full-u again
had inter-sqaud competition. and honestly, i knew from the start we wouldn't win!
we failed uniform inspection even! ):
HONESTLY MAN
lol.

we bathed in like 15 minutes
yes, ALL 27 of us
in like, about six cubicles
the sec3s took the 3rd floor toilet
and we were a couple of mad people, i swear
we all washed hair in the sink
and then rushed in to wash our bodies
then come out change
truly, GB madness HAHA
we were still late LAH.
and we did this rabbit hop thingy TWICE around the MPH
and ran around twice too
which is why, my thighs are dying.
and then we had ice-cream for supper!
cornetos! YUM (:
and they gave out the prizes and all
for the inter-squad competition
squad 3 won
eileen won best commander
liyan got something. but i forgot what. lol.i think for the most improved cadet
and remember the 6 of us that got picked out?
yea, we found out that actually we were picked out cause we were the best six (:
joelynne then got picked out again, for being the one that made no mistakes, that was really reaaallllyyy stable
hmm, tian got picked out for i forgot what. lol
and i got picked out too (:
the di said i've got the x-factor. and that i was the best in the company
hahaha i doubt, but yes, it feels gooddd (:

anyway, for the first time, we slept in the chapel

this morning, we had area cleaning
laughing is not a factor because it hurts to laugh
walking hurts too
and so is sneezing, coughing, moving
yes. THAT bad!
had macdonald breakfast!
yummy yummy yummy i've got love in my tummy and i can't stop loving you!
HAHAHAHAHAHA
and then me ding and ber slacked
for like ten years
we couldnt move, and couldnt laugh
cause it hurt!
HAHAHA WEEAAKKK
i came home
and slept, duh
there's school tmr
i dont know how im gna survive

ohman, colin got clipped from the assistant! ):
and andy dick, is so super mentally, emotionally fcuked. ( sorry, but it was the only word that fit! )

why don't you talk to me?

caught in the middle

2006-10-20T06:14:00.000-07:00
CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE

there's drills tmr
not just drills, but drill CAMP.
i bet it'll be tough.
we're gna train our physical self(stamina) and of course, drills lah

die.
7.15 in church leh.
tell me how im gna survive tmr?

and we're gna have a good time again (:

kiss ma ass

2006-10-19T07:29:00.000-07:00
bloody hell.
i don't know why im so damn mad, i just am

i can't believe one of the clique's gna retain
i'm not just sad, but also angry
angry cause he could have done better
i say, COULD HAVE.
this is bloody sickening!

i can't stand this.
i don't know why im becoming so freaking emo.
i just am.

life is not full of bloody flowers and daisies.
wotcher.

honey, why you calling me so late

2006-10-19T06:28:00.000-07:00
HONEY, WHY YOU CALLING ME SO LATE

the PSI is currently 94
it was hitting 90 this morning.
and about 100 this afternoon

today was screwed
it was the results
it has always been
always.
let's just say it was THATT bad that my L1R4 is 17
and R5 is 20
sciences were really really really disappointing
f&n too. i barely passed.
geog was okay, could be better
maths had just a little slight improvement, but other than that, still kinda stagnant
chinese was surprising. and i'm kinda satisfied with it.
english could be better too.
lit was. argh. screwed.
SO. DAMN. SCREWED

anyway, after that i was really busy, rushing about like nobodies business
and they cleaned up GB room, without the help of the sec 3s.
it's really clean now, but in the long run....
yea
and i dropped my bag and ran around finding the 'vips', looking for a video camera, going to the basement, LAUGHING AT LEONG
LEONG!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
joke of the month: Kenneth Leong Walked Into A Pillar
it was so freaking retarded.
ask bernice, we laughed and laughed until the office people could hear us!
it was seriously funny lah.
anyway, the praise thingy was kinda cool.
archery. but hey, we've done it (:

went to the karaoke thingy for a look
it's cool.
and i guess some people really had good voices
in the end, to give mdm de some face, i sang fen shou kuai le with cheryl
retarded please, i kept laughing
but believe it or not, leong sang too!
and it was pure retarded-ness
he was lip-synching!
bloody poseur. hahahah

after that had drills drills drills!
it's been sometime since i last did it but the good ol' boots feel the same (:
anyway, its gna be real busy soon

drill camp on saturday.
it'll be tough i guess, but good nonetheless

oh, plus, i realised.
everyone's holding parties!
after-exams parties and after Os parties
there's the nicole one, at cocolatte
and the risque one
and zouk

and the sec 4s are disappearing!
i saw neo today
i miss her!
havent spotted an ivy, or a shima or a grace quek for so longgg!
Os are scary.lol.
but i still see the A people.
huiqun, kenneth, yea, those few.

ben&jerry's make cows look cool (:

glad

2006-10-18T06:16:00.000-07:00
GLAD =]

it got so damn screwed!
my toes i mean, it was so b-e-a-utiful!
it still is lah.
just kinda got smudged ):

anyway, there wasnt any school today.
but we went back anyway
the 21 one of us
so had some trg thing
from 8-4pm
it's okay lah.
met william, and alex
who looks like a rugger but is actually not.
yea
after that went to pts's house to do my nails
we laughed like the crazy people we are.
about all the primary school stuff.
stuff like our hairstyle, our handwriting, all of it
it's really funny! and we laughed and laughed
and laughed and laughed and laughed
and laughed and laughed
and laughed
and.

had dinner
and jacintha came and joined us
looked at different nail designs
laughed at our 2nd toes, which are retarded.
and walked to heartland for paopaos
and they asked me stupid riddles SLASH jokes SLASH anything you want it to be
but it requires ALOT of thinking.
sadly, i only got one question right.
HAHAHAHAHA

bus-ed home. and now im here
there's GB tmr. and some praise thingy. and then there's the china thing.
and tmr, thursday. HELP.
we're gna collect back our scripts. or exam papers.
i think i'll die horribly.

well, like my title
i AM glad

glad because it's over
glad because i'm sad
glad because it's a starry night
glad because the sky was clear today
glad because i have such wonderful friends
glad because i still can laugh
glad because i ate yupian
glad because of so many reasons, really
but ultimately, glad because i know im loved (:

when it comes

2006-10-17T05:21:00.000-07:00
WHEN IT COMES

today was boring. not like any other normal tuesday
well okay, it was kinda bad too LAH.
and yet, fun
okay, this is retarded

and we changed class to 4C!
because of the O level practical, we can't use our old classrooms.

oh and in the morning, ELDDS had a performance
it was kinda cool, though had major hiccups.
but yea, the idea was good. we all miss renee and acting and last minute panicking.
the good old days (:

im very very very sure i screwed my f&n paper.
maths paper 1 i passed (: but paper 2 is obviously dead.
lit is passable i guess? but still, the marks don't meet my standard
geog.. hmm i don't know. but i hope i'll do well for it!
anyway, results will be out on thursday

after school we went prata-ing
FATTTTTT! butter makes you fat i tell you!

and did i mention? me and pts went around getting people to join the chinese karaoke competition
HILARIOUSSSSSS

no school tmr. but i gta go back for trg
it starts at 8am and ends at 4 so no difference with any normal school day.
B-O-R-I-N-G!

i wasn't gonna stand here and wait (:

vivo city

2006-10-15T06:48:00.000-07:00
VIVO CITY

remember when i blogged and said that marina's a GREAT place to shop?
now, it's next to vivo city.
went there today.
it is so damn huge. and crowded!
loads of stuff to see and all.
but yea, it's one of those places where you'd get bored of
BUT STILL.
its a grace place to shop
OH, THERE'S GAP
GAP GAP GAP
hahahaha not that i'd be a regular, but HEY! GAP (:
but sadly, spore still doesnt have ecko.
marc ecko.
so pao, singapore still lousy lah.

well, i was in church today (:
pastor talked a whole lot about history
kinda interesting. and bong was being irritating yet nice (:

well, school starts tmr
and we already said we're not gna bring books
LUCKY sec 4s!
study break so dont need to come school.
but then again, they're not so lucky.
cause they're gna be real stressed out and the next time i see them they'd have white hair and they'd look friggin nervous and will be biting their nails, and pulling their hair
AND they wont get to enjoy the freedom of hanging out at mac, laughing and just leaving their books open for show.
instead, they open they're books and study!
wait geraldine, don't talk so much LAH. it'd soon be your turn.

yes, another reason why i hate life.
but another redemption.
i've got my creator king (:

MUST READ! :
a million little pieces - james frey
it's utterly compulsive and very intense.
brought tears and disgust and sadness and laughter and pity all at once!
its really really really good (:

crossroads

2006-10-14T08:30:00.000-07:00
CROSSROADS

had a looonnggg talk with my pts (:
there's been so much.

Thank God for such great friends (:

it looks just like it's tea for two again

2006-10-13T20:54:00.000-07:00
IT LOOKS JUST LIKE IT'S TEA FOR TWO AGAIN

you know what i feel like doing?
i feel like dressing up and going on
but what am i really doing?
i'm staring at this stupid electronic THING in front me and wasting my life away
HA

isn't it GREAT to be a girl? not to be sexist, but well, obviously, females are the better breed
come one guys, just admit it. we're so much better than y'all!
firstly, look. lesbians are more accepted in this society than gays. isn't that true?
and well, it's MUCH easier for a female to CHANGE, like really change into a male in an instant!
all we need is a really good surgeon, and a hell load of money
i mean, yea. ask karina (:
but guys? well, even if you do become a trans, your adam apple will still show!
it doesn't matter how big your fake silicon boobs are, you're still a guy. the apple's the problemo.

and like, girls just get to do ALL the fun stuff!
we can dress up, wear make up, get our nails done
look pretty and NOT seem bitchy at the same time!
but guys. i kinda feel sad for you. all you get to wear is jeans, three quarts, shorts, tshirts, jerseys. you don't even get to experience the joy of wearing bras!
girls can wear jeans, three quarts, shorts, tshirts, and yes, even jerseys! we ALSO can wear skirts, pants, dresses, and get this. boxers
i know it's gross. but females never let themselves lose. we even have female boxers
it's scary, i admit. but there! the truth's out ( please don't gag )

and then there's the traditional argument. sex. and the women bears the baby. carries it around for like a whole 9 months ( yes leong. NINE MONTHS. even it is twins! for goodness sake! )
and then we totally experience the whole giving birth pain shit.
yea. but then again WHO PAYS?
we lose, but not alot. you guys pay for the nappies, the hospital bills, the milk powder, the baby toys and stuff.
we. burn. a. hole. in. your. pocket.
HAHAHAHAHA
and we enjoy doing it all at once! =]

so you see, females really are great.
so what if eve ate the apple first? guys just follow her.
another point : we. are. so. damn. influential.
and our persuasive skills are good too.

alright. i was just feeling proud to be a girl now.
after all, i get half the inheritance too. =]

i see a bumblebee

2006-10-13T03:55:00.000-07:00
I SEE A BUMBLEBEE

okay, this is SO damn gross.
on animal planet (don't even ask why i'm watching it LAH)
they're showing this documentary about
get this : BEES and SAMURAIS
the link? both would do ANYTHING to protect their leader
how dumb.
and he's killing himself for his lord.
HOW DUMB, I SAY
and killer bees sacrifices itself for it's colony
yes. the things animal planet teaches you.

so me, my brother and mum are left alone
daddy went for wedding dinner, AGAIN
and the maid and my grandmother has went home
so the 3 of us are miserable and hungry
and we just ordered pizza
not my idea, but SALAMI?
they didnt need to ask me
WHO LIKES SALAMI?

anyway, today got to go school
had meeting. LOOONGGG meeting
and detoured to mac with dj, koh and leong
yep. now im home
didnt play tennis in the end. didnt go gym. didnt swim
i was feeling fat you see
but i did the WORST possible thing
i shopped.
ARGH
i saw SOOOO many good tops, nice skirts, cool 3-quarts
but sadly, too expensive
i can't wait to earn, and more importantly, SPEND my OWN money.

these days, i've been admiring daphne khoo (:
she writes GREAT lyrics
and i love her songs (:

i'm sorry, i didn't say goodbye.

i'm gna cut you the deepest ):